Thursday, July 31, 2003
sister marlena, God is always beside us despite of all the crappy stuff that we have to go through. like what i said before, all crappy shit & blessings comes from His Almighty Hands. and when we get crappy shit, its because He want us to learn to be strong. at least, i know that in the past 8 years i have learnt a lot and grown up faster than i thought i should. of cos, im also going to ask from Him tonight to let this online store take off but we shall do it according to His will, and what He wants for us. and remember that this online thingy is also supposed to be a trial run of the actual thing and also serve as a learning experience for us. lets concentrate less of the success of the BooksInc. online store but rather invest all our attention & energy towards the PROCESS of setting it up. if we can get the process right on track, then success will follow through too.
five for fighting sings "superman"
there, but for the grace of God, go i....sleeping with ghosts
five for fighting sings "superman"
there, but for the grace of God, go i....sleeping with ghosts
Wednesday, July 30, 2003
God. Please be with me. We've decided to set up an online store first. Let our first step into the business be a successful one. I promise that I'll give up drinking if it turns out to be a success. This i promise you......
Song: (There's gotta be) More to Life - Stacie Orrico
Marlena
Song: (There's gotta be) More to Life - Stacie Orrico
Marlena
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burn this word into your mind and carve it on your skull, kids.
there, but for the grace of God, go i....sleeping with ghosts
burn this word into your mind and carve it on your skull, kids.
there, but for the grace of God, go i....sleeping with ghosts
good news good news. seems like my target of saving & earning 20K by the 1st october is quite a reachable target afterall. i'll soon be starting work again but it will be for a six months contract. the pay is relatively attractive, taking home $1,300 per month but it'll be 6-day workweek with shift timing. seems like i'll need to slog damn real hard for the next 6 months. the contract will be terminated at the end of december. so it fits into our plans for BooksInc. perfectly. besides working there, i'll still be giving my lucrative tuition job. and not to mention that my books have been selling very well. if i can manage my time & enough energy left, i'd hope to take on 1 more tuition assignment.
almost every single thing has been going great and i do thank God for it. and also to marlena, without her, i wouldn't had gotten the six-months thingy. now i need to pray for 2 more things from Him, which is His daily mercies and the physical strength for me to go on. for He is thy rod and thy staff....
all of sudden, it seems like ive lotsa of things to do. one) re-work the financial numbers for BooksInc. eversince we realise that we wont be spending that much and also the downsizing of it. two) making the BooksInc. related zine. three) selling my books and set up the online bookstore albiet BooksInc. related again. four) the six-months contract job. five) making & distributing BooksInc. related stuff. six) my tuition assignments. seven) making the rubber coin-pouch. i shall stop at seven lest i expire before i have even started.
audioslave sings "like a stone"
there, but for the grace of God, go i....sleeping with ghosts
almost every single thing has been going great and i do thank God for it. and also to marlena, without her, i wouldn't had gotten the six-months thingy. now i need to pray for 2 more things from Him, which is His daily mercies and the physical strength for me to go on. for He is thy rod and thy staff....
all of sudden, it seems like ive lotsa of things to do. one) re-work the financial numbers for BooksInc. eversince we realise that we wont be spending that much and also the downsizing of it. two) making the BooksInc. related zine. three) selling my books and set up the online bookstore albiet BooksInc. related again. four) the six-months contract job. five) making & distributing BooksInc. related stuff. six) my tuition assignments. seven) making the rubber coin-pouch. i shall stop at seven lest i expire before i have even started.
audioslave sings "like a stone"
there, but for the grace of God, go i....sleeping with ghosts
Tuesday, July 29, 2003
was about to do my daily ritual of cleaning my terrapins and their plastico tanks when i discovered the smaller one had died-ed, and tripped into terrapin heaven. not exactly sure why its little heart had stopped in the middle of the night but it was still okae when i went to sleep at around three-ish this morning. and now, it went kapoot. i know it has been losing its appetite for like a few weeks already but then brushed it away, thinking that it was the truama of riding in a lorry when i made the move to here. looks like my inattentiveness killed it.
rob zombie raises hell by singing "reload"
you're crashing me by, sleeping with ghosts
rob zombie raises hell by singing "reload"
you're crashing me by, sleeping with ghosts
Using MS Word to make the zine is harder than i thought. maybe i should re-learnt my Freehand. it seems so much easier when i was using the latter software to make ChewyStickyGum zine (CSG). and then my scanner also went kapoot. damn making this new zine is really slow but shall perservere on. and this time round, the zine will be even more raw-looking & extremely DIY. and yeah, still have not think of a name for the zine....
suite chic sings "put em' up"
you're crashing me by, sleeping with ghosts
suite chic sings "put em' up"
you're crashing me by, sleeping with ghosts
Monday, July 28, 2003
First, they took my Nike running shoes.
Almost a year down the road, they took my stepdad's Diesel shoes.
Few months after that, they took my sister Erna's few-months-old mountain bike.
Today, they took my Adidas shoes.
Damn those Bangladeshi workers!!
Marlena
Almost a year down the road, they took my stepdad's Diesel shoes.
Few months after that, they took my sister Erna's few-months-old mountain bike.
Today, they took my Adidas shoes.
Damn those Bangladeshi workers!!
Marlena
Sunday, July 27, 2003
just like those hollywood movies, if we had a soundtrack theme or song to represent a part of us, i guess this'd surely be mine.
Ash's "A Life Less Ordinary"
i smoke myself into a haze in the afternoon, enveloped heart, and the air is cool put on your dress, white goddess and settle in as the weather folds in the slow haze of the afternoon swaying hips, made like a gun blackest sails, the most beautiful star.... in the world, in the air, on my tongue before my eyes, beyond the stars, beneath the sun so.... take me in your arms again, lead me in my dreams again so..... what is it worth?, i'll sell my soul, what is it worth? only you know you were conceived in my heart, came like a dream to save me from my mortality put on your dress, white goddess and settle in as the weather folds our lives will be entwined, even when i die you'll see me through 'till the end of time no earthly bride, the most beautiful star.... in the world, in the air, on my tongue before my eyes, beyond the stars, beneath the sun so.... take me in your arms again, lead me in my dreams again so..... what is it worth?, i'll sell my soul, what is it worth? only you know....
you're crashing me by, sleeping with ghosts
Ash's "A Life Less Ordinary"
i smoke myself into a haze in the afternoon, enveloped heart, and the air is cool put on your dress, white goddess and settle in as the weather folds in the slow haze of the afternoon swaying hips, made like a gun blackest sails, the most beautiful star.... in the world, in the air, on my tongue before my eyes, beyond the stars, beneath the sun so.... take me in your arms again, lead me in my dreams again so..... what is it worth?, i'll sell my soul, what is it worth? only you know you were conceived in my heart, came like a dream to save me from my mortality put on your dress, white goddess and settle in as the weather folds our lives will be entwined, even when i die you'll see me through 'till the end of time no earthly bride, the most beautiful star.... in the world, in the air, on my tongue before my eyes, beyond the stars, beneath the sun so.... take me in your arms again, lead me in my dreams again so..... what is it worth?, i'll sell my soul, what is it worth? only you know....
you're crashing me by, sleeping with ghosts
I've got it all, but I feel so deprived
I go up, I come down and I'm emptier inside
Tell me what is this thing that I feel like I'm missing
And why can't I let go
There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more
Than wanting more
I've got the time and I'm wasting it slowly
Here in this moment I'm half way out the door
Onto the next thing, I'm searching for something that's missing
Than waiting on something other than this
Why am I feelin' like there's something I missed.....
My current favourite song: More to Life (There's Gotta Be) by Stacie Orrico.
Check it out!
Marlena
I go up, I come down and I'm emptier inside
Tell me what is this thing that I feel like I'm missing
And why can't I let go
There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more
Than wanting more
I've got the time and I'm wasting it slowly
Here in this moment I'm half way out the door
Onto the next thing, I'm searching for something that's missing
Than waiting on something other than this
Why am I feelin' like there's something I missed.....
My current favourite song: More to Life (There's Gotta Be) by Stacie Orrico.
Check it out!
Marlena
one thing about this blog, is that it is brewed fresh daily, just like the cuppa of kopi that im going to get from the kopitiam later. was with marlena, zakk, fahmy, michelle c, peizhen, amir, rina, isaac, asra, timberlake, letty, nish, and a few others (pardon me but i dont know their names) till late last night or should i say morning for supper eats at river valley. i love the chesse prata there, very chessy. the supper was to kinda of see fahmy off from the current dump that he is slaving at, and moving on to much greener pastures. its great to hear that whoever that has left the dump, eventually ends up in a better place or position. its abit weird but true. every single staff that has left, has always managed to move one level up regardless whether its their work career or personal well-being. i think the dump is a curse. oh yesh, the supper was great too, been awhile since i hung out with them.
learnt from marlena that fahmy ended up vomitting more $$$$ for the eats. why does it always happen to him. "hey dude, i paid you $8.00, in fact i should get back some change. never mind keep the change. just keep on buying books from me, that will suffice. like any wise old mountain sage would tell you, "i'll squeeze every single moolah outta you so keep on buying books from me." "
today i dont intend to go anywhere but to stay at home and complete every tasks that i had set out to do. i think reading the "Order from Chaos" has helped alot in organising the way i do stuff. i get more things done and basically get an endorphic rush at the end of every single day. like the book says in its sub-title, "6-Steps in Organising Yourself, your Office, and your Life". btw, did i mention that im selling the book too, ive 2 on-hand so grab it if you had been procrastinating until you can even see your toenails growing.
audioslave sings "like a stone"
you're crashing me by, sleeping with ghosts
learnt from marlena that fahmy ended up vomitting more $$$$ for the eats. why does it always happen to him. "hey dude, i paid you $8.00, in fact i should get back some change. never mind keep the change. just keep on buying books from me, that will suffice. like any wise old mountain sage would tell you, "i'll squeeze every single moolah outta you so keep on buying books from me." "
today i dont intend to go anywhere but to stay at home and complete every tasks that i had set out to do. i think reading the "Order from Chaos" has helped alot in organising the way i do stuff. i get more things done and basically get an endorphic rush at the end of every single day. like the book says in its sub-title, "6-Steps in Organising Yourself, your Office, and your Life". btw, did i mention that im selling the book too, ive 2 on-hand so grab it if you had been procrastinating until you can even see your toenails growing.
audioslave sings "like a stone"
you're crashing me by, sleeping with ghosts
Work is kinda different today. Dunno y, it just felt that way. Maybe it's because i got to work with hirman for more than 6hrs at the registers for the first time. it's nice to talk to him and trade each other's life stories.....usually he is just there for an hour or two. another is maybe because there were 4 booksellers doing kids recovery at one time and surprisingly we didn't slack. (considering that 3 of us are old-timers!)hehehehe.
Had enough of letty's nonsense tonight. did talked to her and everything seems to be sorted out......for now. zakk came along while i was knocking some sense into her and both of us try to make her wake up and smell the coffee......hahahaha.
Anyways, all turn out great at the supper-cum-fahmy's farewell get together. but somehow, he ended up paying $18 more for the whole supper. i guess someone or some people had not paid fahmy the right change. hmmmmm.......wonder who's the culprit. i have one suspect in mind right now.......hehehe.
Shared a cab with isaac and we fiddled with the new mobile tv that they fixed into most comfort cabs nowadays. isaac was still hyper while i was exhausted and sleepy during our ride home. (it was already 3plus in the morning when we got into the cab!) but i enjoyed his company nonetheless. oh! and the cab fare ran up to $21 plus! hahahaha. im gonna make up a story and say that there is a road block or something if any of the manager questions me during my payout. no worries, no worries.
Will try to turn in after logging off later. tomorrow is sunday and it is my first sunday off in ages!!!! (I've lost count!) Yippeeee!! can watch gilmore girls! and spend some quality time with my family!
Song: Finally Found
Marlena
Had enough of letty's nonsense tonight. did talked to her and everything seems to be sorted out......for now. zakk came along while i was knocking some sense into her and both of us try to make her wake up and smell the coffee......hahahaha.
Anyways, all turn out great at the supper-cum-fahmy's farewell get together. but somehow, he ended up paying $18 more for the whole supper. i guess someone or some people had not paid fahmy the right change. hmmmmm.......wonder who's the culprit. i have one suspect in mind right now.......hehehe.
Shared a cab with isaac and we fiddled with the new mobile tv that they fixed into most comfort cabs nowadays. isaac was still hyper while i was exhausted and sleepy during our ride home. (it was already 3plus in the morning when we got into the cab!) but i enjoyed his company nonetheless. oh! and the cab fare ran up to $21 plus! hahahaha. im gonna make up a story and say that there is a road block or something if any of the manager questions me during my payout. no worries, no worries.
Will try to turn in after logging off later. tomorrow is sunday and it is my first sunday off in ages!!!! (I've lost count!) Yippeeee!! can watch gilmore girls! and spend some quality time with my family!
Song: Finally Found
Marlena
Saturday, July 26, 2003
was at my ex-workplace earlier to meet up with keng pei so that we could exchange books. i sold her some of mine while she lent me murakami's "south of the border, west of the sun". its fahmy second last day working at that dump, and might be joining them for supper later, sort of "seeing-off" fahmy kinda of thingy. did grab some talks with fahmy, and he brought up something. apparently, there were some people or should i say one individual was not exactly happy about me appearing so often there. he said the individual questioned him why was i appearing so often recently. then he replied, "this is a public place, he's free to go wherever he wants."
i dont get it seriously. me being there and that pricks their nitty-picky asses. i like books and i still buy books from them. in fact, i think they earn tonnes of my $$$$ regardless of whether i am or im not working there anymore. what the fucking dickens.....do they think im spying for some other bookstore.
you're crashing me by, sleeping with ghosts
i dont get it seriously. me being there and that pricks their nitty-picky asses. i like books and i still buy books from them. in fact, i think they earn tonnes of my $$$$ regardless of whether i am or im not working there anymore. what the fucking dickens.....do they think im spying for some other bookstore.
you're crashing me by, sleeping with ghosts
but my head is still spinning....ive been staring at the Mr. Computer for 2 hours already, and nothing productive has been manufactured yet. had a bittersweet dream just right before i woke up. anyway, i feel very accomplished for the past one week, maybe its because of the slow/steady progress for BooksInc.
rancid sings "rubysoho"
when i have my own club (as in like zouk) i'd name it "rubysoho"
you're crashing me by, sleeping with ghosts
rancid sings "rubysoho"
when i have my own club (as in like zouk) i'd name it "rubysoho"
you're crashing me by, sleeping with ghosts
Friday, July 25, 2003
to my fellow team-ers, GOOD NEWS GOOD NEWS. it seems like that we can avoid pouring so much $$$$ into buying the beginning inventory. why im saying this.... because the previous estimation & rough count is pretty off the radar. today, i went down to both kino & borders for a field trip of sorts, to count how much fiction/literature titles that they were carrying. i did not literally count every single title but did a semi-accurate estimation, and these are the results.
kino based on my generous estimates, they have roughly 10,000 - 14,000 fict/lit titles depending on season and peak stock levels. borders also based on generous estimates, they have roughly 10,000 - 13,000 fict/lit titles, again depending on season and peak stock levels.
going by these findings, we can actually have a mini-celebration because it means that we'd be able to surpass their selection if we want to. and the current plans of downsizing the store will be made very much possible. i'll be re-calculating all the numbers once i get the laptop (read: son) back from sister marlena.
btw marlena, your husband wants to be Mr NEo anderson, so you want to be Trinity or not, very cool one you know. i can be the ship, Nebuchadnezzar.
shania twain sings "you've got a way"
you're crashing me by, sleeping with ghosts
kino based on my generous estimates, they have roughly 10,000 - 14,000 fict/lit titles depending on season and peak stock levels. borders also based on generous estimates, they have roughly 10,000 - 13,000 fict/lit titles, again depending on season and peak stock levels.
going by these findings, we can actually have a mini-celebration because it means that we'd be able to surpass their selection if we want to. and the current plans of downsizing the store will be made very much possible. i'll be re-calculating all the numbers once i get the laptop (read: son) back from sister marlena.
btw marlena, your husband wants to be Mr NEo anderson, so you want to be Trinity or not, very cool one you know. i can be the ship, Nebuchadnezzar.
shania twain sings "you've got a way"
you're crashing me by, sleeping with ghosts
felt my brain gana engineered...'hi sir how can i help'
got a question- - wat determine a good kisser...hmmm.......
think of who....chinatown ah....wake up your idea
NFK dude now known as Mr NEo anderson
got a question- - wat determine a good kisser...hmmm.......
think of who....chinatown ah....wake up your idea
NFK dude now known as Mr NEo anderson
from my 17th floor room window, i can only see one lonely star tonight, and
a few clumps of clouds floating quietly by. i must be thinking of her again.
you're crashing me by, sleeping with ghosts
a few clumps of clouds floating quietly by. i must be thinking of her again.
you're crashing me by, sleeping with ghosts
I feel so wasted......so tired, mentally and physically.
I think my brain is going to explode! and i think my bones are going to break soon! AAAARGGGGHHHH!!!!!!!!
Damn damn damn.
Should get a super rich husband and retire asap. HAHAHAHAHAHA! (I'm dreaming here).
That will never happen.
Marlena
I think my brain is going to explode! and i think my bones are going to break soon! AAAARGGGGHHHH!!!!!!!!
Damn damn damn.
Should get a super rich husband and retire asap. HAHAHAHAHAHA! (I'm dreaming here).
That will never happen.
Marlena
Thursday, July 24, 2003
Everybody's got something they had to leave behind.
One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time.
There's no use looking back or wondering.
How it could be now or might have been.
This I know but still I can't find ways to let you go.
Marlena
One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time.
There's no use looking back or wondering.
How it could be now or might have been.
This I know but still I can't find ways to let you go.
Marlena
Wednesday, July 23, 2003
i will end the end of lies....
and words have minds of their own but they
are also dictated by the person inside you (conscious or not)
****
you're crashing me by, sleeping with ghosts
and words have minds of their own but they
are also dictated by the person inside you (conscious or not)
****
you're crashing me by, sleeping with ghosts
Tuesday, July 22, 2003
ive been pissed off and ive decided to escalate this pissed-off emo-lings for
no apparent good reason. why never see me nice kenny flare up before rite????
die die must deliberately come irritate me rite???? watch it when i throw my anger
at you, you wouldn't want it, believe me. what the f##king dickens....
you're crashing me by, sleeping with ghosts
no apparent good reason. why never see me nice kenny flare up before rite????
die die must deliberately come irritate me rite???? watch it when i throw my anger
at you, you wouldn't want it, believe me. what the f##king dickens....
you're crashing me by, sleeping with ghosts
Monday, July 21, 2003
It's very sad to know that yr loved ones avoid yr calls. You will have this lump in your throat which you try to swallow and the tears will just flow. Sometimes you wonder whether you are being a pest. But would you consider calling someone a pest even though that someone only calls you like once every three weeks? Would you consider someone a pest even though that someone only talks to you for about five minutes? Maybe that someone always talk about the same subject during that short phone conversation and you are getting really tired of all his/her shit but it still does not give you the right of treating that someone as a pest. Maybe you just doesn't have enough tolerance. Maybe you are not made for all this shit. Maybe you are just not good enough. . .as a friend, as a human being.
Give that someone a chance. Give that someone more than five minutes of your time. Maybe. . .just maybe you will find that someone is actually isn't as bad as you thought. Make an effort. . .don't say you will do it later. Don't say you don't know. Just follow yr heart and intuition and it will guide you in the right direction.
P.S I'm talking shit right now. if you guys understand what i mean, then that's good.
Song: Wasting my time (Default)
Marlena
Give that someone a chance. Give that someone more than five minutes of your time. Maybe. . .just maybe you will find that someone is actually isn't as bad as you thought. Make an effort. . .don't say you will do it later. Don't say you don't know. Just follow yr heart and intuition and it will guide you in the right direction.
P.S I'm talking shit right now. if you guys understand what i mean, then that's good.
Song: Wasting my time (Default)
Marlena
if this was my new found glory then i'd be at ease. at ease of this dangerous living. i know what im made of. neither tinder nor ash. but ferocity is what i might be seeing. a sick obessession to get as close to a speeding car while crossing the roads. the rush of it. the gravity pulling away from my body. as the car passes me by fast. you got away with all my words. and silence is still what im exactly most familiar with. if words could crack into two, mine surely would. from the jagged little edge. shimmering from the edge. i dont run away at all. neither might nor wits will get me through. but ferocity is what i might be seeing. if fierce-ness was me. and of course, He is thy rod and thy staff.
prose
you're crashing me by, sleeping with ghosts
prose
you're crashing me by, sleeping with ghosts
hahahaha. . . i'm on mc today. the management is going to fire me sooner or later cuz i have taken lotsa mcs! The limit is 12 days for the whole year if i'm not wrong and i have taken like wat....10days??? hmmmm.....have to rely on annual leaves now. anyways, it's kinda good cuz i haven't had a truly good rest in ages! got to clean my bedroom as well! now it's spick and span.hahahahaha. . .but sigh...have class this evening.
Cya.
Marlena
Cya.
Marlena
bad boys bad boys what are you gonna do, what are you gonna do
when they come for you.......
you're crashing me by, sleeping with ghosts
when they come for you.......
you're crashing me by, sleeping with ghosts
heard that someone is hitting on someone....
crazy in love by foxy dishy BEYONCE KNOWLEssss
NFK dude
crazy in love by foxy dishy BEYONCE KNOWLEssss
NFK dude
Sunday, July 20, 2003
Ive decided to sleep veryyyyyy late tonite. maybe around 5am??!! have lotsa stuff to do! enough of surfing the net for 3hrs now. let's get down to some serious business. . . . my assignments. . . . n rearranging all my books.
have work in the morning and class in the evening. the same goes for tues, wednesday and friday.
Current song: yellow (coldplay)
Marlena
have work in the morning and class in the evening. the same goes for tues, wednesday and friday.
Current song: yellow (coldplay)
Marlena
*walking after you*
tonight im tangled in my blanket of clouds dreaming aloud things just wont do without you matter of fact im on your back if you walk out on me im walking after you if you'd accept surrender i'll give up some more weren't you adored? i cannot be without you matter of fact im on your back if you walk out on me im walking after you another heart cracked in two im on your back.......
* * * *
im listening to this very slow emo un-loud song from the foo fighters now.
the lyrics are pretty emo too, with a tinge of psychoism and melancholism.
you're crashing me by, sleeping with ghosts
tonight im tangled in my blanket of clouds dreaming aloud things just wont do without you matter of fact im on your back if you walk out on me im walking after you if you'd accept surrender i'll give up some more weren't you adored? i cannot be without you matter of fact im on your back if you walk out on me im walking after you another heart cracked in two im on your back.......
* * * *
im listening to this very slow emo un-loud song from the foo fighters now.
the lyrics are pretty emo too, with a tinge of psychoism and melancholism.
you're crashing me by, sleeping with ghosts
decided not to go down to esplanade tonight with zakk n' the rest of
the girls. if im out with them, there is a very high chance that i'd spent
money on whatever that is more than necessary. i still have to run an
errand at six-ish in the evening in town, so i guess i'd be meeting up with
erny & peizhen for cheap cheap dinner. they dont cook dinner over here
on sundays, instead dad would bring all of them out for a family-risque kinda
affair. so no matter what ive to settle my own eats since ive to go out
tonight again. i promise that im only going to spend money on dinner and
nothing else. tomorrow morning or should i say come monday to friday,
ive to run morning errands. and the location coincidentally, is just outside
my ex-workplace, Borders.
oh yesh, Asra said that she didn't realise that Borders had that much bloggers.
was thinking aloud whether we could come together and form a ring or a
group or an alliance or a secret society. i prefer the latter though. currently,
Asra and Salamie and Jo had linked us to their blogs. on our own BooksInc.
blog, you can also visit the links which will transport you to Isaac, Asra, and
Salamie's own blogs.
another oh yesh, read that Asra got her LOMO. i want one too!!!! i want my
Lomo camera too.
a final oh yesh, im thinking of putting up a tagboard on the blog. i guess it
should help encourage our friends to communicate with us at a higher
frequency. and Jo if you're reading this, ive given up the idea of the phone
logger thingy. it seems damn cool to be able to blog anywhere everywhere
using the handphone but its also quite a hassle. i guess a tagboard would
suffice for now.
nicholas tse sings "let me die"
you're crashing me by, sleeping with ghosts
the girls. if im out with them, there is a very high chance that i'd spent
money on whatever that is more than necessary. i still have to run an
errand at six-ish in the evening in town, so i guess i'd be meeting up with
erny & peizhen for cheap cheap dinner. they dont cook dinner over here
on sundays, instead dad would bring all of them out for a family-risque kinda
affair. so no matter what ive to settle my own eats since ive to go out
tonight again. i promise that im only going to spend money on dinner and
nothing else. tomorrow morning or should i say come monday to friday,
ive to run morning errands. and the location coincidentally, is just outside
my ex-workplace, Borders.
oh yesh, Asra said that she didn't realise that Borders had that much bloggers.
was thinking aloud whether we could come together and form a ring or a
group or an alliance or a secret society. i prefer the latter though. currently,
Asra and Salamie and Jo had linked us to their blogs. on our own BooksInc.
blog, you can also visit the links which will transport you to Isaac, Asra, and
Salamie's own blogs.
another oh yesh, read that Asra got her LOMO. i want one too!!!! i want my
Lomo camera too.
a final oh yesh, im thinking of putting up a tagboard on the blog. i guess it
should help encourage our friends to communicate with us at a higher
frequency. and Jo if you're reading this, ive given up the idea of the phone
logger thingy. it seems damn cool to be able to blog anywhere everywhere
using the handphone but its also quite a hassle. i guess a tagboard would
suffice for now.
nicholas tse sings "let me die"
you're crashing me by, sleeping with ghosts
i went to the woods because i wanted to live deep,
and suck out all the marrow of life. to put to rout
all that was not life. and not, when i come to die, i
discover that i had not lived....dead poets society
you're crashing me by, sleeping with ghosts
and suck out all the marrow of life. to put to rout
all that was not life. and not, when i come to die, i
discover that i had not lived....dead poets society
you're crashing me by, sleeping with ghosts
just came back from the biz seminar that peizhen's friend had recommended.
it wasn't exactly fruitful becos i already know close to 99% of whatever fact
that they were expounding. the only thing fruitful to come out of it, is that
ive managed to meet a few people which adds on to my network.
took a long bus ride home from pasir ris on bus 88. peizhen reached home
earlier than me while i still had 1/4 of the journey left to toa payoh.
the bus route also tranversed through ang mo kio, my old place that i
had just left. zoomed past the S-11 coffeeshop that i always patronise
during the wee hours of the morning. rode past the 7-Eleven too. felt kinda nostalgic and maybe abit of downish.
you're crashing me by, sleeping with ghosts
it wasn't exactly fruitful becos i already know close to 99% of whatever fact
that they were expounding. the only thing fruitful to come out of it, is that
ive managed to meet a few people which adds on to my network.
took a long bus ride home from pasir ris on bus 88. peizhen reached home
earlier than me while i still had 1/4 of the journey left to toa payoh.
the bus route also tranversed through ang mo kio, my old place that i
had just left. zoomed past the S-11 coffeeshop that i always patronise
during the wee hours of the morning. rode past the 7-Eleven too. felt kinda nostalgic and maybe abit of downish.
you're crashing me by, sleeping with ghosts
Saturday, July 19, 2003
Have you ever had a dream that feels sooooo bloody damn real?? i just had one and somehow, my heart feels heavy..........and very, very sad. This sounds silly but I'm crying right now.....for no apparent reason.
Gonna go back to bed and try to make myself fall asleep...
Marlena
Gonna go back to bed and try to make myself fall asleep...
Marlena
Friday, July 18, 2003
CARPE DIEM
it sound damn cliche but i must carpe diem, before i get caught, and i
have no death wish to get caught. yesh, all of us should carpe diem.
a spoonful of risk, a focused mind, and a whole damn lotsa of guts is all it takes.
btw, BooksInc. investment amount can be cut down to 280K as compared to the
400K previously calculated. but take heed that the 280K are just preliminary
figures, nothing concrete.
you're crashing me by, sleeping with ghosts
it sound damn cliche but i must carpe diem, before i get caught, and i
have no death wish to get caught. yesh, all of us should carpe diem.
a spoonful of risk, a focused mind, and a whole damn lotsa of guts is all it takes.
btw, BooksInc. investment amount can be cut down to 280K as compared to the
400K previously calculated. but take heed that the 280K are just preliminary
figures, nothing concrete.
you're crashing me by, sleeping with ghosts
Had my work appraisal done by my managers today. everything is good and the whole appraisal session ended in half an hour. basically, the managers will keep on rambling while i will keep on nodding my head. hahahahaha! whatever la!!!!
Anyways, met emy at work too! it's been quite some time since i last saw her. she doing some teaching job or something which is weird cuz she actually just completed her degree in food, science & technology in RMIT university. well, i guess economy is bad. hehehe.....im reminiscing of the late night phone conversations that we had when she was studying in australia. all the gossips, problems and jokes that we shared. hahaha.
Remember the day i mentioned that my nike socks were stolen? Well, today, my sis's mountain bike was stolen. she always left it outside in the corridor and now it's gone. she hasn't been talking to anyone and my mum called me up while im at work to tell me abt it. once i reached home, i looked at her while she was sleeping and feel sad for her. Dunno why. but i know she really likes that bike. it was a gift from my dad. . . . my parents are divorced for those who didnt know. my sis is very sensitive and when i looked at her, i noticed that her eyes are swollen. i guess she must have been crying. wanted to get her a new bike but i couldn't afford it rite now. sigh. . . .will talk to her and console her tomorrow.
oh ya, to mie, cheer up, k? come on, life's like that. u just have to go through it and dun call it quits just like that.
to asra, yr recent post on yr blog is funny gal. i know what u meant abt that particular buffy's episode. somehow i kinda like that one. it's funny to see everyone singing! hahahaha. oh ya, feel free to sign the guestbk!
my schedule is getting hectic by the day. lotsa things to do. i guess its gd in a way so that i would not think of that particular someone. still love him.....hehehehe. getting emo here, aren't i?? haiz.......if only i could turn back time....if only i really could....
Marlena
Anyways, met emy at work too! it's been quite some time since i last saw her. she doing some teaching job or something which is weird cuz she actually just completed her degree in food, science & technology in RMIT university. well, i guess economy is bad. hehehe.....im reminiscing of the late night phone conversations that we had when she was studying in australia. all the gossips, problems and jokes that we shared. hahaha.
Remember the day i mentioned that my nike socks were stolen? Well, today, my sis's mountain bike was stolen. she always left it outside in the corridor and now it's gone. she hasn't been talking to anyone and my mum called me up while im at work to tell me abt it. once i reached home, i looked at her while she was sleeping and feel sad for her. Dunno why. but i know she really likes that bike. it was a gift from my dad. . . . my parents are divorced for those who didnt know. my sis is very sensitive and when i looked at her, i noticed that her eyes are swollen. i guess she must have been crying. wanted to get her a new bike but i couldn't afford it rite now. sigh. . . .will talk to her and console her tomorrow.
oh ya, to mie, cheer up, k? come on, life's like that. u just have to go through it and dun call it quits just like that.
to asra, yr recent post on yr blog is funny gal. i know what u meant abt that particular buffy's episode. somehow i kinda like that one. it's funny to see everyone singing! hahahaha. oh ya, feel free to sign the guestbk!
my schedule is getting hectic by the day. lotsa things to do. i guess its gd in a way so that i would not think of that particular someone. still love him.....hehehehe. getting emo here, aren't i?? haiz.......if only i could turn back time....if only i really could....
Marlena
Thursday, July 17, 2003
shouts* to salimie, isaac and asra. yeah we could form a blogger society,
and better make it a secret, so that we will be a secret society. i love
secret societies....
credo quia absurdum - i believe because it is irrational
you're crashing me by, sleeping with ghosts
and better make it a secret, so that we will be a secret society. i love
secret societies....
credo quia absurdum - i believe because it is irrational
you're crashing me by, sleeping with ghosts
theres something called " see doctor"...wats up huh....
looks like someone fate is determined liao- - her entrance to periodicals
yes- it was raining heavily last night even till on way home after work...
apparently i was sharing a small cute mini brollie with sherrifa and poor " the month before this month" got no space lah.
'sleeping with ghost" i think ah u need an good antidote for ur stomach upset>>>>
NKF dude
looks like someone fate is determined liao- - her entrance to periodicals
yes- it was raining heavily last night even till on way home after work...
apparently i was sharing a small cute mini brollie with sherrifa and poor " the month before this month" got no space lah.
'sleeping with ghost" i think ah u need an good antidote for ur stomach upset>>>>
NKF dude
Wednesday, July 16, 2003
this is the end of everything, this is the end of happiness, this is the end
of daylight and nightfall, this is the end of hope, this is the end of innocence,
this is the end of union and separation, this is the end of love, this is the end
of hate, this is the end of will and temptation, this is the end of greed, this is
the end of evil, this is the end of life and death, this is the end of hunger, this
is the end of trust, this is the end of birth and faith, this is the end of lies, this
is the end of power, this is the end of colour and killings, this is the end of strife,
this is the end of make-believe, this is the end of jubilation and sadness, this is
the end of getting high, this is the end of suicides, this is the end of listening
and speaking, this is the end of silence, this is the end of rape, this is the end
of idolatry and paganism, thsi is the end of you, this is the end of me, this is the
end of i dont know, this is the end of i know, and this was the end of everything.
and at the end, i saw her smile her killer smile....
you're crashing me by, sleeping with ghosts
of daylight and nightfall, this is the end of hope, this is the end of innocence,
this is the end of union and separation, this is the end of love, this is the end
of hate, this is the end of will and temptation, this is the end of greed, this is
the end of evil, this is the end of life and death, this is the end of hunger, this
is the end of trust, this is the end of birth and faith, this is the end of lies, this
is the end of power, this is the end of colour and killings, this is the end of strife,
this is the end of make-believe, this is the end of jubilation and sadness, this is
the end of getting high, this is the end of suicides, this is the end of listening
and speaking, this is the end of silence, this is the end of rape, this is the end
of idolatry and paganism, thsi is the end of you, this is the end of me, this is the
end of i dont know, this is the end of i know, and this was the end of everything.
and at the end, i saw her smile her killer smile....
you're crashing me by, sleeping with ghosts
Had a bad day at school yesterday. Presentation was bad and my lecturer asked me to redo it. Sigh.....
Now, it's back to more assignments.
I feel so damn tired.
Tink it's going to rain again. Can't wait. Like it when it rains
In my place (Coldplay)
Marlena
Now, it's back to more assignments.
I feel so damn tired.
Tink it's going to rain again. Can't wait. Like it when it rains
In my place (Coldplay)
Marlena
im watching the Rugrats now....and if i had to choose which character i'd
want to be, i'd choose either philip or lilian. why? that is because they eat
everything, anything in sight and within reach. the bestest part is when
they eat insects of all kind, worms, bugs, more worms, more bugs, every
single creepy crawlie there is. and nothing beats having an evil twin around.
you're crashing me by, sleeping with ghosts
want to be, i'd choose either philip or lilian. why? that is because they eat
everything, anything in sight and within reach. the bestest part is when
they eat insects of all kind, worms, bugs, more worms, more bugs, every
single creepy crawlie there is. and nothing beats having an evil twin around.
you're crashing me by, sleeping with ghosts
Tuesday, July 15, 2003
just finished reading the "His Dark Materials" trilogy by Philip Pullman,
and it is damn blasphemerous. it is something that i wouldn't recommend
anyone to read it - regardless of the fact that its a really good read - unless
your faith and trust in God is rock solid. know your place with God before
reading it or least you'd be tempted or swayed by the evil one. it is even
more dark than that harry potter. the latter is like peanuts when compared
to "His Dark Materials". i never realised that anyone could write something
of such extremity and risk warranting His wrath by changing His Words.
you're crashing me by, sleeping with ghosts
there, but for the grace of God, go i
and it is damn blasphemerous. it is something that i wouldn't recommend
anyone to read it - regardless of the fact that its a really good read - unless
your faith and trust in God is rock solid. know your place with God before
reading it or least you'd be tempted or swayed by the evil one. it is even
more dark than that harry potter. the latter is like peanuts when compared
to "His Dark Materials". i never realised that anyone could write something
of such extremity and risk warranting His wrath by changing His Words.
you're crashing me by, sleeping with ghosts
there, but for the grace of God, go i
hohum.......im still having diahrroea and i decided that if by tomorrow, it
doesn't stop, im going to try Po Chai Yun. though plagued by sickness,
i had a good day on monday, made a kill for my fledging biz. today, i was
supposed to go for the 1st tuition session but had to postpone it to thursday
becos of the diahrroea. the assigment that the agency arranged is very good.
it'll be 2 hours per session and 2 times per week. the pay is $400.00 and im
only teaching the kid English. lets pray that more of such deals come again.
will have to rest early tonight, regain back some of the energy lost in
diahrroea bouts becos i still have to run an early errand tomorrow. and after
that i still have to wait for mom at 1pm to pass me some letters.
you're crashing me by, sleeping with ghosts
doesn't stop, im going to try Po Chai Yun. though plagued by sickness,
i had a good day on monday, made a kill for my fledging biz. today, i was
supposed to go for the 1st tuition session but had to postpone it to thursday
becos of the diahrroea. the assigment that the agency arranged is very good.
it'll be 2 hours per session and 2 times per week. the pay is $400.00 and im
only teaching the kid English. lets pray that more of such deals come again.
will have to rest early tonight, regain back some of the energy lost in
diahrroea bouts becos i still have to run an early errand tomorrow. and after
that i still have to wait for mom at 1pm to pass me some letters.
you're crashing me by, sleeping with ghosts
I have so much i feel & want to say,
but when i start to talk or write i don't know why i feel this waY.
maybe tt's the way my life's supposed to bE,
silence - it alwaYs gets to me.
It's the root to all mY despair,
mayBe one daY il be able to find mYself somewhere.
ALL tHe TiMe In THe WoRlD
Tt Is TiLl I tUrN bLuE.
zaKK
but when i start to talk or write i don't know why i feel this waY.
maybe tt's the way my life's supposed to bE,
silence - it alwaYs gets to me.
It's the root to all mY despair,
mayBe one daY il be able to find mYself somewhere.
ALL tHe TiMe In THe WoRlD
Tt Is TiLl I tUrN bLuE.
zaKK
zaKK hErE.
it's 1719 hrs & i'm at e internet cafe at far east shopping center with my brother-in-law & shaun. i actually don't know what i ought to write, but i'l try cuz i aint been posting anything on e blog for e longest time. sorrY.
a shout out to cheryl if yoU read this.
aPPLE, would like to see you in ash blonde hair though, you'd look different. i hope tt you're ok.
i hope tt sleeping with ghosts is feeling better yep, drink plenty water & rest so tt you'd recover faster.
Anyway, mY "ANGEL JieJie" is in town with her husband. Brought them to river valleY much to their delight.
As usual, i don't have much to say, this is it. i'll stop here. havE a good day all. it's raining - wet weather always makes me haPPy.
aLL the time in the world,
that is till i turn blue.
zaKK
it's 1719 hrs & i'm at e internet cafe at far east shopping center with my brother-in-law & shaun. i actually don't know what i ought to write, but i'l try cuz i aint been posting anything on e blog for e longest time. sorrY.
a shout out to cheryl if yoU read this.
aPPLE, would like to see you in ash blonde hair though, you'd look different. i hope tt you're ok.
i hope tt sleeping with ghosts is feeling better yep, drink plenty water & rest so tt you'd recover faster.
Anyway, mY "ANGEL JieJie" is in town with her husband. Brought them to river valleY much to their delight.
As usual, i don't have much to say, this is it. i'll stop here. havE a good day all. it's raining - wet weather always makes me haPPy.
aLL the time in the world,
that is till i turn blue.
zaKK
Work is good today. Spent more than half my day at work in periodicals department. Learnt lotsa stuff.
Afher that, went out with Peizhen and sleeping with ghosts.
Me bought a new colourful coin pouch from Happy House. Me also bought a pair of deep purple-framed spectacles! yippeeeeeee!!!!!!!! Me also gonna dye my hair maroonish or ash brown or something if i have enough cash.
But then again, have to pay my mum back once i got my pay this month. (Actually i use her $$$ to buy these stuff. hehehe.)
SIGH.
Marlena
Afher that, went out with Peizhen and sleeping with ghosts.
Me bought a new colourful coin pouch from Happy House. Me also bought a pair of deep purple-framed spectacles! yippeeeeeee!!!!!!!! Me also gonna dye my hair maroonish or ash brown or something if i have enough cash.
But then again, have to pay my mum back once i got my pay this month. (Actually i use her $$$ to buy these stuff. hehehe.)
SIGH.
Marlena
Monday, July 14, 2003
My teammates have probably read this. So this is for all those aliens, robots, normal people, people in luv, people falling in luv, people who thot they are in luv and other mad people. Enjoy!
A long time ago, before the world was created and humans set foot on it
for the first time, virtues and vices floated around and were bored, not
knowing what to do. One day, all the vices and virtues were gathered
together and were more bored than ever.
Suddenly, Ingenious came up with an idea: "Let's play hide and seek!" All
of them liked the idea and immediately Madness shouted: "I want to count,
I want to count!" And since nobody was crazy enough to want to seek
Madness, all the others agreed.
Madness leaned against a tree and started to count: "One, two, three..."
As Madness counted, the vices and virtues went hiding.
Tenderness hung itself on the horn of the moon, Treason hid in a pile of
garbage. Fondness curled up between the clouds and Passion went to the
center of the earth. Lie said that it would hide under a stone, but hid at
the bottom of the lake, whilst Avarice entered a sack that he ended up
breaking.
And Madness continued to count: "...seventy nine, eighty, eighty one..."
By this time, all the vices and virtues were already hidden - except Love.
For undecided as Love is, he could not decide where to hide. And this
should not surprise us, because we all know how difficult it is to hide
Love.
Madness: "...ninety five, ninety six, ninety seven..."
Just when Madness got to one hundred, Love jumped into a rose bush where
he hid.
And Madness turned around and shouted: "I'm coming, I'm coming!"
As Madness turned around, Laziness was the first to be found, because
Laziness had no energy to hide.
Then he spotted Tenderness in the horn of the moon, Lie at the bottom of
the lake and Passion at the center of the earth.
One by one, Madness found them all - except Love.
Madness was getting desperate, unable to find Love.
Envious of Love, Envy whispered to Madness: "You only need to find Love,
and Love is hiding in the rose bush."
Madness grabbed a wooden pitch fork and stabbed wildly at the rose bush.
Madness stabbed and stabbed until a heartbreaking cry made him stop.
Love appeared from the rose bush, covering his face with his hands.
Between his fingers ran two trickles of blood from his eyes. Madness, so
anxious to find Love, had stabbed out Love's eyes with a pitch fork.
"What have I done! What have I done!" Madness shouted.
"I have left you blind! How can I repair it?"
And Love answered: "You cannot repair my eyes. But if you want to do
something for me, you can be my guide."
And so it came about that from that day on, Love is blind and is always
accompanied by Madness.
Signing off, Marlena
A long time ago, before the world was created and humans set foot on it
for the first time, virtues and vices floated around and were bored, not
knowing what to do. One day, all the vices and virtues were gathered
together and were more bored than ever.
Suddenly, Ingenious came up with an idea: "Let's play hide and seek!" All
of them liked the idea and immediately Madness shouted: "I want to count,
I want to count!" And since nobody was crazy enough to want to seek
Madness, all the others agreed.
Madness leaned against a tree and started to count: "One, two, three..."
As Madness counted, the vices and virtues went hiding.
Tenderness hung itself on the horn of the moon, Treason hid in a pile of
garbage. Fondness curled up between the clouds and Passion went to the
center of the earth. Lie said that it would hide under a stone, but hid at
the bottom of the lake, whilst Avarice entered a sack that he ended up
breaking.
And Madness continued to count: "...seventy nine, eighty, eighty one..."
By this time, all the vices and virtues were already hidden - except Love.
For undecided as Love is, he could not decide where to hide. And this
should not surprise us, because we all know how difficult it is to hide
Love.
Madness: "...ninety five, ninety six, ninety seven..."
Just when Madness got to one hundred, Love jumped into a rose bush where
he hid.
And Madness turned around and shouted: "I'm coming, I'm coming!"
As Madness turned around, Laziness was the first to be found, because
Laziness had no energy to hide.
Then he spotted Tenderness in the horn of the moon, Lie at the bottom of
the lake and Passion at the center of the earth.
One by one, Madness found them all - except Love.
Madness was getting desperate, unable to find Love.
Envious of Love, Envy whispered to Madness: "You only need to find Love,
and Love is hiding in the rose bush."
Madness grabbed a wooden pitch fork and stabbed wildly at the rose bush.
Madness stabbed and stabbed until a heartbreaking cry made him stop.
Love appeared from the rose bush, covering his face with his hands.
Between his fingers ran two trickles of blood from his eyes. Madness, so
anxious to find Love, had stabbed out Love's eyes with a pitch fork.
"What have I done! What have I done!" Madness shouted.
"I have left you blind! How can I repair it?"
And Love answered: "You cannot repair my eyes. But if you want to do
something for me, you can be my guide."
And so it came about that from that day on, Love is blind and is always
accompanied by Madness.
Signing off, Marlena
Hey! hey! hey! it's me again. . . boring marlena. hahahaha. Anyway, im blogging and chatting to sleeping with ghosts thru msn messenger 6.0. this version is cool! (to sleeping with ghosts, sleep early so that you can wake up early and buy my "butterfly" and coffee morrow!) hehehe. . .
Nothing eventful happened today except for my nike socks which has been stolen early this morning. weird. . weird.
Now thinking of some asian country to go for a holiday next year with sleeping with ghosts, nkf dude and zakk. the shortlisted destinations are bali, phuket, ko samui, bintan (since nkf dude likes resorts), cambodia (angkor wat. . .nice, nice), bangkok, myanmar and hongkong!! yippee.....now have to draw lots or something.
Eh! I have an idea! Maybe all of us can choose one destination first, then from that destination, we can fly to another one! The airfare might be cheaper! Any suggestions, anyone?????
Marlena
Nothing eventful happened today except for my nike socks which has been stolen early this morning. weird. . weird.
Now thinking of some asian country to go for a holiday next year with sleeping with ghosts, nkf dude and zakk. the shortlisted destinations are bali, phuket, ko samui, bintan (since nkf dude likes resorts), cambodia (angkor wat. . .nice, nice), bangkok, myanmar and hongkong!! yippee.....now have to draw lots or something.
Eh! I have an idea! Maybe all of us can choose one destination first, then from that destination, we can fly to another one! The airfare might be cheaper! Any suggestions, anyone?????
Marlena
Sunday, July 13, 2003
just woke up, had a shower, stomach was in pain, went to the toilet,
and everything that came out wasn't exactly solid. the tummy still dont
feel too good yet but maybe after i had brunch i'd feel better. today
shall continue to unpack again (dont ask me why im taking so long to
unpack, but then i am), and then start work on the zine.
for those that hadn't been following, i'll be republishing the contents of
this blog into a zine. i used to make my own magazine called ChewyStickyGum
so i thought that why not. afterall, ive been itching to make another zine
after the demise of CSG. ive not decided what to name this new zine but
i guess it should have connection to the BooksInc. name. and i also do
not know how long i'd take to complete this zine. but when its done, you
all will surely know about it. going down to grab my brunch now.
you're crashing me by, sleeping with ghosts
and everything that came out wasn't exactly solid. the tummy still dont
feel too good yet but maybe after i had brunch i'd feel better. today
shall continue to unpack again (dont ask me why im taking so long to
unpack, but then i am), and then start work on the zine.
for those that hadn't been following, i'll be republishing the contents of
this blog into a zine. i used to make my own magazine called ChewyStickyGum
so i thought that why not. afterall, ive been itching to make another zine
after the demise of CSG. ive not decided what to name this new zine but
i guess it should have connection to the BooksInc. name. and i also do
not know how long i'd take to complete this zine. but when its done, you
all will surely know about it. going down to grab my brunch now.
you're crashing me by, sleeping with ghosts
Saturday, July 12, 2003
"as the twilight smiles"
as the twilight smiles
i frown and feel small within
an ant walks my hand
i wonder if it compares
my skin to the soil
the air is too cold
i wonder if the sky breathes
our thoughts and then cry
the leaves are too quiet
i wonder what they think about
when the sun is out
my heart it gets weary
i hope i can still wonder
when the answers stop....
my friend, Azira wrote this poem and had passed it to me to be
published in the now defunct magazine "ChewyStickyGum" that
i was doing back then. and while unpacking just now, i came
across this poem again. and since CSG is dead, i shall publish it
on our blog then....agape, sleeping with ghosts
as the twilight smiles
i frown and feel small within
an ant walks my hand
i wonder if it compares
my skin to the soil
the air is too cold
i wonder if the sky breathes
our thoughts and then cry
the leaves are too quiet
i wonder what they think about
when the sun is out
my heart it gets weary
i hope i can still wonder
when the answers stop....
my friend, Azira wrote this poem and had passed it to me to be
published in the now defunct magazine "ChewyStickyGum" that
i was doing back then. and while unpacking just now, i came
across this poem again. and since CSG is dead, i shall publish it
on our blog then....agape, sleeping with ghosts
oh yesh, oh yesh nearly forgotten but i have to DROP THIS BOMB to
anyone who has been following the stories of our lives.
im afraid the setting up of BooksInc. the bookstore will be delayed
till the 3rd quarter of next year, in view that ive not been able to get
the 400k of financing. and this explains why ive been so frustrated,
downish, and most of the time, silently deep in thoughts.
but in the meantime, im still working on the goal of saving/earning
20k in 3 months time, which began on 01july and should end on 01october.
and im glad to say that im making progress though in-between there
were a few hiccups. and im also still working on getting that 400k.
i have not given up and i will not. ive chosen this path, i got no
other choice, this is my life, make it or break it.
agape, sleeping with ghosts
anyone who has been following the stories of our lives.
im afraid the setting up of BooksInc. the bookstore will be delayed
till the 3rd quarter of next year, in view that ive not been able to get
the 400k of financing. and this explains why ive been so frustrated,
downish, and most of the time, silently deep in thoughts.
but in the meantime, im still working on the goal of saving/earning
20k in 3 months time, which began on 01july and should end on 01october.
and im glad to say that im making progress though in-between there
were a few hiccups. and im also still working on getting that 400k.
i have not given up and i will not. ive chosen this path, i got no
other choice, this is my life, make it or break it.
agape, sleeping with ghosts
just got back not too long ago. had dinner with jobina, michelle, and zakk
at chomp chomp. a very filling dinner but the stingray pretty sucks, could
only manage morsels of it. then i drop by at uncle victor's place while they
made their way to the nice cafe joint. had a short but solid talk with him,
and managed to ask him for some advice regarding BooksInc.
and later when i met them again at the cafe joint, we had a game of
monopoly. i believe michelle won, and i should have come to a close 2nd
if i wasn't mistaken. the place was very nice, must bring the rest of the
gang there sometime. and did i mention that the iced chamomile tea was
great too.
sarah mcLachlan sings "good enough"
agape, sleeping with ghosts
at chomp chomp. a very filling dinner but the stingray pretty sucks, could
only manage morsels of it. then i drop by at uncle victor's place while they
made their way to the nice cafe joint. had a short but solid talk with him,
and managed to ask him for some advice regarding BooksInc.
and later when i met them again at the cafe joint, we had a game of
monopoly. i believe michelle won, and i should have come to a close 2nd
if i wasn't mistaken. the place was very nice, must bring the rest of the
gang there sometime. and did i mention that the iced chamomile tea was
great too.
sarah mcLachlan sings "good enough"
agape, sleeping with ghosts
The Tiger*
Tiger! Tiger! burning bright
In the forests of the night,
What immortal hand or eye
Could frame thy fearful symmetry?
by william blake
Tiger! Tiger! burning bright
In the forests of the night,
What immortal hand or eye
Could frame thy fearful symmetry?
by william blake
satellite "sacrifice"
at a stretch, above the starryscary skies. a satellite races on.
i fix my gaze on above. wishing that it might come down on me.
wishing it'll come crashing to me. satellite come crashing down
to me. look at how it burns, like a diamond in the sky. all metal
and matter, that is my satellite. and i shall christened it "sacrifice"
so that it'll be noble and great. in this night, satellite come crashing
me by. with a streak of brilliance, it showered lights and sparks.
it's burning amber, its burning bright, crashing at a stretch across
the dreary sky. satellite steal across the moon in lines of secret
pathway. and you should look up, resting high above the clouds,
that is my satellite "sacrifice" coming around to crash me by. yes,
it is coming to crash me by.
i wrote this prose back in 23december01'. i wrote it after listening
to dave matthews band's "satellite". it feels dark but then it is not.
agape, sleeping with ghosts
at a stretch, above the starryscary skies. a satellite races on.
i fix my gaze on above. wishing that it might come down on me.
wishing it'll come crashing to me. satellite come crashing down
to me. look at how it burns, like a diamond in the sky. all metal
and matter, that is my satellite. and i shall christened it "sacrifice"
so that it'll be noble and great. in this night, satellite come crashing
me by. with a streak of brilliance, it showered lights and sparks.
it's burning amber, its burning bright, crashing at a stretch across
the dreary sky. satellite steal across the moon in lines of secret
pathway. and you should look up, resting high above the clouds,
that is my satellite "sacrifice" coming around to crash me by. yes,
it is coming to crash me by.
i wrote this prose back in 23december01'. i wrote it after listening
to dave matthews band's "satellite". it feels dark but then it is not.
agape, sleeping with ghosts
Friday, July 11, 2003
at long damn freakin' last, my internet connection is BACK already.
the cable people came earlier, and to think that i woke up at eight-ish in the
morning to await or their arrival. had quite a lowish-offish-downish kinda
of day yesterday. when i reached home felt even worst, so to shake off that
"life-sucks-die" feelings, i read n' read some more. reading always helps i
guess. i think i have too much stuff in my mind, and it is arresting the way i
handle things. could be true when i say i dont feel very smart these days.
my ex-workplace 'papa' called after i reached home yesterday and we talk abit.
he did not put things in a newer light for me because he already knew what i
should be doing. i know his call was to make sure that i was okae. thanks.
leticia and i are beginning to talk as normal again. so i guess that is good and
im truly sorry for everything that has come to pass thus far.
im listening to my dad's old cantonese records and this particular song sure
makes a lot of sense to me.
now i should get back to the biz affairs of BooksInc. or else when
fm comes back, he'll either decapitate or sit on me. either method i will die.
CAREBEARS SWEAR....
samuel hui sings "lang zi xing shen"
agape, sleeping with ghosts
the cable people came earlier, and to think that i woke up at eight-ish in the
morning to await or their arrival. had quite a lowish-offish-downish kinda
of day yesterday. when i reached home felt even worst, so to shake off that
"life-sucks-die" feelings, i read n' read some more. reading always helps i
guess. i think i have too much stuff in my mind, and it is arresting the way i
handle things. could be true when i say i dont feel very smart these days.
my ex-workplace 'papa' called after i reached home yesterday and we talk abit.
he did not put things in a newer light for me because he already knew what i
should be doing. i know his call was to make sure that i was okae. thanks.
leticia and i are beginning to talk as normal again. so i guess that is good and
im truly sorry for everything that has come to pass thus far.
im listening to my dad's old cantonese records and this particular song sure
makes a lot of sense to me.
now i should get back to the biz affairs of BooksInc. or else when
fm comes back, he'll either decapitate or sit on me. either method i will die.
CAREBEARS SWEAR....
samuel hui sings "lang zi xing shen"
agape, sleeping with ghosts
Oh ya, lemme say this again to Jo. HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL!!! I know it's kind of belated oreadi but enjoy yourself anyway! To Isaac and Ridhwan, gonna miss you. Keep in touch ya. All the best!
Marlena
Marlena
I'm back! Haven't been bloggin for quite some time now. Couple of things had happened.....good and bad ones.
FM sms me all the way from barcelona. he's trying to make me jealous by telling me that he had just seen fields of sunflowers over there. he knows how much i love sunflowers! hahaha......nevermind...i'm growing sunflowers of my own right now and all three of them are about 11cm tall now! just need to get new flowerpots for each of my babies before they grow too tall.
nearly had a mental breakdown a few days ago. too much pressure from school and the situation at work is not helping at all. i can't believe that i cried in the middle of my assignment at 3plus in the morning a few days ago. it was a very last min work. this reminded me of an incident in which i also cried while doing a last minute school homework which i did not know how to do in the first place. in that past incident, i did told my mum that i didn't know how to do my homework and i have to hand in to my teacher later. (i was in the afternoon session). instead of helping me, my mum scolded me for not doing it earlier. what else could i do but cry. i couldn't remember whether i managed to finish the work, or whether i attended school that day, or whether i lied to my teacher by saying that i forgot to bring my work. hmmm.....
song: all about loving you (bon jovi)
Marlena
FM sms me all the way from barcelona. he's trying to make me jealous by telling me that he had just seen fields of sunflowers over there. he knows how much i love sunflowers! hahaha......nevermind...i'm growing sunflowers of my own right now and all three of them are about 11cm tall now! just need to get new flowerpots for each of my babies before they grow too tall.
nearly had a mental breakdown a few days ago. too much pressure from school and the situation at work is not helping at all. i can't believe that i cried in the middle of my assignment at 3plus in the morning a few days ago. it was a very last min work. this reminded me of an incident in which i also cried while doing a last minute school homework which i did not know how to do in the first place. in that past incident, i did told my mum that i didn't know how to do my homework and i have to hand in to my teacher later. (i was in the afternoon session). instead of helping me, my mum scolded me for not doing it earlier. what else could i do but cry. i couldn't remember whether i managed to finish the work, or whether i attended school that day, or whether i lied to my teacher by saying that i forgot to bring my work. hmmm.....
song: all about loving you (bon jovi)
Marlena
Thursday, July 10, 2003
surprise surprise im actually bloggin now from the semi-comfort of the living room.
there was a blogger boo-boo that i had to attend to so decided to move Mr.
Computer and the whole gang to the hall so that i could set it up to the existing
cable point in the hall. im still waiting for the cable people to come in tomorrow to
open another point in my room. will be loggin out now. when my internet connection is back in full swing, i'll be
bloggin' in full swing too.
beyond sings "xi huan ni"
agape, sleeping with ghosts
there was a blogger boo-boo that i had to attend to so decided to move Mr.
Computer and the whole gang to the hall so that i could set it up to the existing
cable point in the hall. im still waiting for the cable people to come in tomorrow to
open another point in my room. will be loggin out now. when my internet connection is back in full swing, i'll be
bloggin' in full swing too.
beyond sings "xi huan ni"
agape, sleeping with ghosts
Wednesday, July 09, 2003
The original message blog by NKF Dude has been deleted for various unknown
reasons. and i had also explained to him why i had to delete it. thats all.
agape, sleeping with ghosts
reasons. and i had also explained to him why i had to delete it. thats all.
agape, sleeping with ghosts
Tuesday, July 08, 2003
surprise surprise, im now actually at an internet cafe, doing what i do best,
blogging. the move to toa payoh had been pretty smooth other than the
terrible lack of helpers. imagine my uncle & me moving around 50 boxes
of stuff, starting from seven in the evening and we ended at aorund eleven.
by then, i guess i nearly died. tried to do abit of unpacking today but instead
slack, and only managed to set up the bookshelves & desk. my internet
connection will not be up that soon. the cable service people will be coming
down this friday to open up a cable point in my room. so either i have to be
patient or continue to come down to places like this for my daily blogging fix.
the flu is also turning nasty, and i hope it'd abate soon. had my first home-made
dinner in around 3 years. auntie doreen cooked some simple dishes but it was
enough to make me happy, and i got to eat together with dad. its been a long
time i had such a luxury of having home-made dinner & eating with dad.
the place at toa payoh is fantastic, the room is big, i live on the 17th floor, have
windows looking out to the night sky, meaning i could see stars, have water
heater for my early morning showers, and i have more space to put more books.
after this blogging, im joining zakk n' the rest for supper.
agape, sleeping with ghosts
blogging. the move to toa payoh had been pretty smooth other than the
terrible lack of helpers. imagine my uncle & me moving around 50 boxes
of stuff, starting from seven in the evening and we ended at aorund eleven.
by then, i guess i nearly died. tried to do abit of unpacking today but instead
slack, and only managed to set up the bookshelves & desk. my internet
connection will not be up that soon. the cable service people will be coming
down this friday to open up a cable point in my room. so either i have to be
patient or continue to come down to places like this for my daily blogging fix.
the flu is also turning nasty, and i hope it'd abate soon. had my first home-made
dinner in around 3 years. auntie doreen cooked some simple dishes but it was
enough to make me happy, and i got to eat together with dad. its been a long
time i had such a luxury of having home-made dinner & eating with dad.
the place at toa payoh is fantastic, the room is big, i live on the 17th floor, have
windows looking out to the night sky, meaning i could see stars, have water
heater for my early morning showers, and i have more space to put more books.
after this blogging, im joining zakk n' the rest for supper.
agape, sleeping with ghosts
Monday, July 07, 2003
The All-American Rejects' "Swing Swing"
days swiftly come and go. i'm dreaming of her. she's seeing other guys.
emotions they stir. the sun is gone. the nights are long.
and i am left while the tears fall.
did you think that i would cry on the phone?
do you know what it feels like being alone?
i'll find someone new.
Swing, Swing, Swing from the tangles of my heart is crushed by a former love.
can you help me find a way to carry on again.
wish cast into the sky. i'm moving on. sweet beginnings do arise.
she knows i was wrong. the notes are old, they bend, they fold,
and so do i to a new love.
did you think that i would cry on the phone?
do you know what it feels like being alone?
i'll find someone new.
Swing, Swing, Swing from the tangles of my heart is crushed by a former love.
can you help me find a way to carry on again.
bury me (you thought your problems were gone)
carry me (away. away, away...)
Swing, Swing, Swing from the tangles of my heart is crushed by a former love.
can you help me find a way to carry on again.
agape, sleeping with ghosts
days swiftly come and go. i'm dreaming of her. she's seeing other guys.
emotions they stir. the sun is gone. the nights are long.
and i am left while the tears fall.
did you think that i would cry on the phone?
do you know what it feels like being alone?
i'll find someone new.
Swing, Swing, Swing from the tangles of my heart is crushed by a former love.
can you help me find a way to carry on again.
wish cast into the sky. i'm moving on. sweet beginnings do arise.
she knows i was wrong. the notes are old, they bend, they fold,
and so do i to a new love.
did you think that i would cry on the phone?
do you know what it feels like being alone?
i'll find someone new.
Swing, Swing, Swing from the tangles of my heart is crushed by a former love.
can you help me find a way to carry on again.
bury me (you thought your problems were gone)
carry me (away. away, away...)
Swing, Swing, Swing from the tangles of my heart is crushed by a former love.
can you help me find a way to carry on again.
agape, sleeping with ghosts
its now eleven-ish in the morning, just woke up, and i have still not really
pack yet. and the best thing, is that im NOT FEELING ANY PANIC at all, well,
at least not yet. this seems to be a good sign where im myself again, the
part where i usually take things calmly.
the flu is going berserk, the freeflow of the day is yellow mucus straight from
me nose. digusting but all so true. the move will be tonight, and i pray to God
that it'll be a smooth one, unlike the last one. this is my 6th move in three years
and im getting really tired of it. i know this move to toa payoh will not be my last
one but i believe i'd be able to stay there for quite a while before i shift again.
the next time i shift, it'd be to my own playground at Emerald Hill, God willing of
course. going to get a bite now, brunch would be the word, and dread i cant go JB
with marlena n' the rest.
this will be all for now, the internet connection will be down for the next few days as
i make my move over. so guess i'd disappear for a while. its good to disappear for
a while. so later, and yesh before i forgot, if all of you (yesh, whoever is reading)
could do me this favour, and go rip this song by the All-American Rejects, called
"Swing Swing". its damn nice. rip it, burn it, and sing it out loud at 7ante meridiem
would be the best.
The All-American Rejects sings "Swing Swing"
agape, sleeping with ghosts
pack yet. and the best thing, is that im NOT FEELING ANY PANIC at all, well,
at least not yet. this seems to be a good sign where im myself again, the
part where i usually take things calmly.
the flu is going berserk, the freeflow of the day is yellow mucus straight from
me nose. digusting but all so true. the move will be tonight, and i pray to God
that it'll be a smooth one, unlike the last one. this is my 6th move in three years
and im getting really tired of it. i know this move to toa payoh will not be my last
one but i believe i'd be able to stay there for quite a while before i shift again.
the next time i shift, it'd be to my own playground at Emerald Hill, God willing of
course. going to get a bite now, brunch would be the word, and dread i cant go JB
with marlena n' the rest.
this will be all for now, the internet connection will be down for the next few days as
i make my move over. so guess i'd disappear for a while. its good to disappear for
a while. so later, and yesh before i forgot, if all of you (yesh, whoever is reading)
could do me this favour, and go rip this song by the All-American Rejects, called
"Swing Swing". its damn nice. rip it, burn it, and sing it out loud at 7ante meridiem
would be the best.
The All-American Rejects sings "Swing Swing"
agape, sleeping with ghosts
Aahh. Just finished watching Titanic on TV. Classic love story. Anyway, my sunflowers are growing well! All 3 of them are about 7cm tall and im so happy that they are actually growing! Wow!
Sleeping with ghosts said that there's something wrong with the blog but when i went online, everything is fine. That's when he realised that his computer has gone bonkers! hehehehe. He gave a good whack on the monitor and that was all it took for it to operate as usual. He must be feeling a bit pissed cuz he really thought that there was something wrong with the blog and he could not figure it out for hours! Well.....I'm glad all is well now.
And I am going to Johor Bahru tomorrow with my colleagues! So excited! Haven't been there for more than 3 years now. Wah.....time do flies fast.
But first, I will try to finish one of my assignments by tonight......by hook or by crook. I envy my 'lil sis right now. She's happily reading her Harry Potter and the Order of Phoenix and relaxing real good on my bed. And tomorrow is Youth Day! So she doesn't have to go to school! Oh no.......the rugrats will start invading the store again!
Song: Intuition (Jewel Kilcher)
Marlena
Sleeping with ghosts said that there's something wrong with the blog but when i went online, everything is fine. That's when he realised that his computer has gone bonkers! hehehehe. He gave a good whack on the monitor and that was all it took for it to operate as usual. He must be feeling a bit pissed cuz he really thought that there was something wrong with the blog and he could not figure it out for hours! Well.....I'm glad all is well now.
And I am going to Johor Bahru tomorrow with my colleagues! So excited! Haven't been there for more than 3 years now. Wah.....time do flies fast.
But first, I will try to finish one of my assignments by tonight......by hook or by crook. I envy my 'lil sis right now. She's happily reading her Harry Potter and the Order of Phoenix and relaxing real good on my bed. And tomorrow is Youth Day! So she doesn't have to go to school! Oh no.......the rugrats will start invading the store again!
Song: Intuition (Jewel Kilcher)
Marlena
Sunday, July 06, 2003
am going to put all the distractions away for now, ive to seriously pack or
else tomorrow will be dreadful. im also down with flu, crapping up my breathing.
shall grab some lunch first, rip some much needed songs, and packing will i start
soon.
jimmy eat world sings "call it in the air"
agape, sleeping with ghosts
else tomorrow will be dreadful. im also down with flu, crapping up my breathing.
shall grab some lunch first, rip some much needed songs, and packing will i start
soon.
jimmy eat world sings "call it in the air"
agape, sleeping with ghosts
Reply my oh my....
2 minutes walk from Borders, that i'd be referring to the current Hermes site
at Liat Towers, which means it is terribly close to Borders. but before any
protests is thrown at me, please listen to my explanation. if you all want to
hear the explanation, call me, there's too much pros than cons to discuss
regarding the site. and even before the call, think of why i had suggested
the site, in logical terms taking into account of the services that we are providing.
just got home but dont feel like sleeping at all. guess i might as pack then.
come monday 7july i'll be moving to toa payoh, and for a good reason, im not
feeling exactly happy about it.
mayday sings "innocence"
agape, sleeping with ghosts
2 minutes walk from Borders, that i'd be referring to the current Hermes site
at Liat Towers, which means it is terribly close to Borders. but before any
protests is thrown at me, please listen to my explanation. if you all want to
hear the explanation, call me, there's too much pros than cons to discuss
regarding the site. and even before the call, think of why i had suggested
the site, in logical terms taking into account of the services that we are providing.
just got home but dont feel like sleeping at all. guess i might as pack then.
come monday 7july i'll be moving to toa payoh, and for a good reason, im not
feeling exactly happy about it.
mayday sings "innocence"
agape, sleeping with ghosts
my oh my
its been a long long time.....so did it rhyme good?
2 mins walk from borders--------......hmmm............ pacific plaza?!
marlena getting old liao--listening to class95 already....same
yawn, , sleepy
good nite
NKF DUDE
its been a long long time.....so did it rhyme good?
2 mins walk from borders--------......hmmm............ pacific plaza?!
marlena getting old liao--listening to class95 already....same
yawn, , sleepy
good nite
NKF DUDE
Saturday, July 05, 2003
why the hell am i up so early, well at least this was what i was whining
to marlena over the messenger. for some sick reason, im think im addicted
to waking up early, and it is giving me the shudders. had a very tiring day
yesterday running the one-hundred-and-one errands, and today i still have
one more errand to run in the evening. i doubt i'll be able to pack much today since im going out again. so im going to concentrate on packing tomorrow, and whatever is leftover, i can continueon monday morning & afternoon. dad says he'll come down in the evening for the move.
bumped into serena again in town yesterday, had dinner and as usual was bitching about the affairs of our ex-workplace, or should i say the people in
it. its always so fun to talk to her, and yesh, she was wearing a black skirt,
so yesh, she's still very much into black-black stuff.
recently, ive eyed a new location for BooksInc., and thus far the comments about its potential has been promising. regardless, i still have to get the 400K before i can even dream of getting this location. for those who want to know
which site im talking about, well, the place is exactly 2 minutes of leisure walk
from Borders. go figure. go figure. go figure. go figure.
oh yesh thanks to salimie and isaac for signing the GB
ash sings "a life less ordinary"
agape, sleeping with ghosts
to marlena over the messenger. for some sick reason, im think im addicted
to waking up early, and it is giving me the shudders. had a very tiring day
yesterday running the one-hundred-and-one errands, and today i still have
one more errand to run in the evening. i doubt i'll be able to pack much today since im going out again. so im going to concentrate on packing tomorrow, and whatever is leftover, i can continueon monday morning & afternoon. dad says he'll come down in the evening for the move.
bumped into serena again in town yesterday, had dinner and as usual was bitching about the affairs of our ex-workplace, or should i say the people in
it. its always so fun to talk to her, and yesh, she was wearing a black skirt,
so yesh, she's still very much into black-black stuff.
recently, ive eyed a new location for BooksInc., and thus far the comments about its potential has been promising. regardless, i still have to get the 400K before i can even dream of getting this location. for those who want to know
which site im talking about, well, the place is exactly 2 minutes of leisure walk
from Borders. go figure. go figure. go figure. go figure.
oh yesh thanks to salimie and isaac for signing the GB
ash sings "a life less ordinary"
agape, sleeping with ghosts
I'm multi-tasking right now. chatting thru the msn messenger with sleeping with ghosts and one of my friends, mie. I'm also listening to class 95fm for the FIRST time! hehehehe.
Somehow, i begin to feel that im slacking more nowadays in terms of everything. feels so wasted. damn shitty. have to do something........SIGH.
Oh! My longtime best friend, Faizal, is online and he just sent me a message. Later. . . . . . . . . . .
P.S Hi Matt.
Marlena
Somehow, i begin to feel that im slacking more nowadays in terms of everything. feels so wasted. damn shitty. have to do something........SIGH.
Oh! My longtime best friend, Faizal, is online and he just sent me a message. Later. . . . . . . . . . .
P.S Hi Matt.
Marlena
Friday, July 04, 2003
and the second errand has been completed. i think earning money this
way is hard as hell, having to wake up early, and then run a thousand
places, and meet so many different people. and not to forget the waiting
time that ive to endure. if i continue like this, im going to accumulate so
much patience due to the waiting, i'll soon turn into a stone.
the last errand is at eight-pm @ cityhall mrt station. it should by right be a
fast one, hand the books over, get the cash, and then go on home. and
maybe i'd still have enough strength to do abit of packing.
jimmy eat world sings "call it in the air"
Leave home today, escape your region, it's in your head, keep moving on.
Become your dad, live unquestioned, it's in your head, nostalgia is death.
Choose starlight. no way to retrace, it is gone.
Choose star bright. no way to retrace, it is gone.
no way to retrace all your good days add them up, it is gone.
none of you knew any more then. leave it here, it is gone.
can't depend on honest answers from dependent hands.
won't accept an honest answer from an open hand.
say the words and i sign off.
starlight star bright starlight star bright starlight star bright
agape, sleeping with ghosts
way is hard as hell, having to wake up early, and then run a thousand
places, and meet so many different people. and not to forget the waiting
time that ive to endure. if i continue like this, im going to accumulate so
much patience due to the waiting, i'll soon turn into a stone.
the last errand is at eight-pm @ cityhall mrt station. it should by right be a
fast one, hand the books over, get the cash, and then go on home. and
maybe i'd still have enough strength to do abit of packing.
jimmy eat world sings "call it in the air"
Leave home today, escape your region, it's in your head, keep moving on.
Become your dad, live unquestioned, it's in your head, nostalgia is death.
Choose starlight. no way to retrace, it is gone.
Choose star bright. no way to retrace, it is gone.
no way to retrace all your good days add them up, it is gone.
none of you knew any more then. leave it here, it is gone.
can't depend on honest answers from dependent hands.
won't accept an honest answer from an open hand.
say the words and i sign off.
starlight star bright starlight star bright starlight star bright
agape, sleeping with ghosts
ive just completed my first errand, and will be out again in an hour's time
for the second one. im feeling tired already but the wonderful weather is
compensating it. im going to have lunch now, slack abit before making my
way out again.
jimmy eat world sings "a praise chorus"
"im on my feet, im on the floor, im good to go,
all i need is to just hear a song i know,
want to always feel like part of this was mine,
want to fall in love tonight, here, tonight"
agape, sleeping with ghosts
for the second one. im feeling tired already but the wonderful weather is
compensating it. im going to have lunch now, slack abit before making my
way out again.
jimmy eat world sings "a praise chorus"
"im on my feet, im on the floor, im good to go,
all i need is to just hear a song i know,
want to always feel like part of this was mine,
want to fall in love tonight, here, tonight"
agape, sleeping with ghosts
i was bloggin' and then mr. computer decided to hang on me. ive been
up since seven-ish and i dont know why im up so early since my errand
appointment is at nine. today will be long-drawn day running
errands at different places at different timing and it'll end until tonight
at eight. so i should've been sleeping, getting all the rest i need instead
of waking up so early. quoting (regret) "im like a short
fuse, burning all the time".
will have to go shower soon if i still want to be in time. the weather seems
nice. hope it will be this way when i move on monday. i'll be reserving this
saturday n' sunday for packing, and im praying that ive enough boxes. but
then maybe i should call dad later and inform of this seemingly lack-of-boxes
situation. lets hope that he's able to help.
new order sings "regret"
agape, sleeping with ghosts
up since seven-ish and i dont know why im up so early since my errand
appointment is at nine. today will be long-drawn day running
errands at different places at different timing and it'll end until tonight
at eight. so i should've been sleeping, getting all the rest i need instead
of waking up so early. quoting (regret) "im like a short
fuse, burning all the time".
will have to go shower soon if i still want to be in time. the weather seems
nice. hope it will be this way when i move on monday. i'll be reserving this
saturday n' sunday for packing, and im praying that ive enough boxes. but
then maybe i should call dad later and inform of this seemingly lack-of-boxes
situation. lets hope that he's able to help.
new order sings "regret"
agape, sleeping with ghosts
Thursday, July 03, 2003
just got home after a very long day. but guess what tomorrrow will be
an even longer day. this is worst than where i used to work. later will
be joining zakk and rest of the gang for supper at amk though im not
exactly not hungry at all. its a case of loss of appetite, maybe im coming
down with flu, courtesy of marlena.
its already confirmed, dad says that the move will take place on this coming
monday, 7july. my dad has such wonderful timing but i still
love my dad. God has given him back to me and i thank God everyday.
met amir in town after i was done with my errands. then while we were
walking, we bumped into serena. so the 3 of us ended up at starbucks
liat towers, chatting and slacking and catching up. am now doing my laundry and also preping up my stuff for the big move to
toa payoh, my old hometown. ready or not, here i come. sure miss my old
playground.
new order sings "regret"
agape, sleeping with ghosts
an even longer day. this is worst than where i used to work. later will
be joining zakk and rest of the gang for supper at amk though im not
exactly not hungry at all. its a case of loss of appetite, maybe im coming
down with flu, courtesy of marlena.
its already confirmed, dad says that the move will take place on this coming
monday, 7july. my dad has such wonderful timing but i still
love my dad. God has given him back to me and i thank God everyday.
met amir in town after i was done with my errands. then while we were
walking, we bumped into serena. so the 3 of us ended up at starbucks
liat towers, chatting and slacking and catching up. am now doing my laundry and also preping up my stuff for the big move to
toa payoh, my old hometown. ready or not, here i come. sure miss my old
playground.
new order sings "regret"
agape, sleeping with ghosts
HELP ME!! I just can't get started on my assignments. i'm stuck!
I can't do my assignments morrow cuz i will be working the closing shifts for the next two days and i'll be dead tired by the time i reached home! And i can't do now cuz if i don't sleep soon, my day at work later will be filled with grouchiness.
The only day i tink i can fully concentrate on my assignments is on Saturday but then, i have to accompany erna to L's house for her tuition. AAAARRRGGGHHHH!
Die....die....die. No more extensions. Die die must hand in this coming week.
Song: Where is the Love (Justin Timberlake)
*Panicky Marlena*
I can't do my assignments morrow cuz i will be working the closing shifts for the next two days and i'll be dead tired by the time i reached home! And i can't do now cuz if i don't sleep soon, my day at work later will be filled with grouchiness.
The only day i tink i can fully concentrate on my assignments is on Saturday but then, i have to accompany erna to L's house for her tuition. AAAARRRGGGHHHH!
Die....die....die. No more extensions. Die die must hand in this coming week.
Song: Where is the Love (Justin Timberlake)
*Panicky Marlena*
Hello! I've changed the colours and fonts in the blog. Let me know what you guys think about it.
Gonna watch buffy on tv now.
Cya! Have fun!
Marlena
Gonna watch buffy on tv now.
Cya! Have fun!
Marlena
Wednesday, July 02, 2003
when everything seems so lost and down, this is the song....
streets of philadelphia
i was bruised and battered and i couldn't tell what i felt
i was unrecognizable to myself saw my reflection in a window
i didn't know my own face Oh brother are you gonna leave me
wasting away on the streets of Philadelphia
i walked the avenue till my legs felt like stone i heard the voices
of friends vanished and gone at night i could hear the blood in my veins
just as black and whispering as the rain on the streets of Philadelphia
ain't no angel gonna greet me it's just you and i my friend
and my clothes don't fit me no more i walked a thousand miles
just to slip this skin the night has fallen, im lyin' awake
i can feel myself fading away so receive me brother with your faithless kiss
or will we leave each other alone like this on the streets of Philadelphia
agape, sleeping with ghosts
streets of philadelphia
i was bruised and battered and i couldn't tell what i felt
i was unrecognizable to myself saw my reflection in a window
i didn't know my own face Oh brother are you gonna leave me
wasting away on the streets of Philadelphia
i walked the avenue till my legs felt like stone i heard the voices
of friends vanished and gone at night i could hear the blood in my veins
just as black and whispering as the rain on the streets of Philadelphia
ain't no angel gonna greet me it's just you and i my friend
and my clothes don't fit me no more i walked a thousand miles
just to slip this skin the night has fallen, im lyin' awake
i can feel myself fading away so receive me brother with your faithless kiss
or will we leave each other alone like this on the streets of Philadelphia
agape, sleeping with ghosts
marlena cleaned up a lot of dust just now. i sweared we could have
been buried by dust just now. there was dust here, there was dust
there, there was dust everywhere. i sleep in dust, i eat in dust, im
good friends with dust, i live with dust. and now my room is quite free
of dust because of marlena. i think im starting to miss dust.
and the whole day ive been whining to marlena. whining about the grave
that i had dug for myself. maybe i should buy a bottle of oolong cha
from 7-eleven, drink it so that my thoughts will be crystal clear just
like the crystal clear tea.
agape, sleeping with ghosts
been buried by dust just now. there was dust here, there was dust
there, there was dust everywhere. i sleep in dust, i eat in dust, im
good friends with dust, i live with dust. and now my room is quite free
of dust because of marlena. i think im starting to miss dust.
and the whole day ive been whining to marlena. whining about the grave
that i had dug for myself. maybe i should buy a bottle of oolong cha
from 7-eleven, drink it so that my thoughts will be crystal clear just
like the crystal clear tea.
agape, sleeping with ghosts
btw, something screwed up with the blog and most of our features are gone. sleeping with ghosts had restored it back except for the guestbook. hope every inputs in the guestbook will still be there when it is installed back.
Marlena
Marlena
hey people.....i'm at sleeping with ghosts's house now. you would not believe what i saw at his place. his room is filled with lotsa lotsa dust everywhere! the dust is so thick and visible that for a moment, you thought u had stepped into an abandoned house or a cave! u guys got to come here and see it for yourself!!!
anyway, just finished watching harry potter on hbo and will start packing his stuff now. he is moving in with his dad. we had just bought tapes and markers and will start packing his VERY dusty things into the boxes.
talk to you people later.
Marlena
anyway, just finished watching harry potter on hbo and will start packing his stuff now. he is moving in with his dad. we had just bought tapes and markers and will start packing his VERY dusty things into the boxes.
talk to you people later.
Marlena
i know i had made restituition but it doesn't erase the fact that i might
have hurt you. i really do not how i had gotten myself into this mess.
i know i have really dug my own grave this time round, and no matter
how much amount of explanation it'll not be able to get me out of it.
i want to say sorry. im really very sorry. sorry for creating this whole mess.
sorry for not thinking straight. sorry to the both of you. sorry for being so
fickle. sorry for not knowing what i want. sorry for any hurt that i might
have caused. sorry for being such jerk. sorry for falling to wayside when
i least expected it. sorry for being so irresponsible. sorry for being so
insensitive. sorry for having wavered, and losing your trust.
im sorry for everything that has happened thus far.
after all this, i know for sure that you mean a lot to me. you're the
one that i had fallen for. whether you believe me or not, there's nothing
much i can do now. guess what, for once i feel so helpless in a situation
that i had created. i think there is really nothing that i can do now or ever.
and you're still the one that ive fallen for.......that night over our sms-es, i wanted to msg "i love you".
im sorry.
agape, sleeping with ghosts
have hurt you. i really do not how i had gotten myself into this mess.
i know i have really dug my own grave this time round, and no matter
how much amount of explanation it'll not be able to get me out of it.
i want to say sorry. im really very sorry. sorry for creating this whole mess.
sorry for not thinking straight. sorry to the both of you. sorry for being so
fickle. sorry for not knowing what i want. sorry for any hurt that i might
have caused. sorry for being such jerk. sorry for falling to wayside when
i least expected it. sorry for being so irresponsible. sorry for being so
insensitive. sorry for having wavered, and losing your trust.
im sorry for everything that has happened thus far.
after all this, i know for sure that you mean a lot to me. you're the
one that i had fallen for. whether you believe me or not, there's nothing
much i can do now. guess what, for once i feel so helpless in a situation
that i had created. i think there is really nothing that i can do now or ever.
and you're still the one that ive fallen for.......that night over our sms-es, i wanted to msg "i love you".
im sorry.
agape, sleeping with ghosts
