Sunday, August 31, 2003
there was this heavy rain last night just before i turned in last night, and it was fantastic. by now, most of you are aware that i lived on the lofty 17th floor, and the view is always wonderful regardless of the weather. and last night, while it was pouring, i peered out and saw sheets & sheets of rain pouring down. it was like blankets of water free-falling in a sweeping motion, and the sight was really to behold. and this is a case where i constantly thank God for allowing me to live here. His daily graces have been ceaseless and overflowing....
lumidee sings "uh-oh"
i take valium like you eat mentos....sleeping with ghosts
lumidee sings "uh-oh"
i take valium like you eat mentos....sleeping with ghosts
was watching this korean movie on cable just but it was different, definitely not the usual pop-like or trashy or comedic kinda of korean fare. instead, it was very real, very heartwarming, and shows you why life is always worth living regardless of the circumstances. the story is about this young couple trying hard to have a child - the missus is infertile - and when they finally succeed after three years through the invitro method, the bad news descends upon them. the baby is diagnosed with anencephaly, which means that the child will be born without a brain. so in the show, you'll see the couple grappling with issues such as abortion and also their internal struggles. but at the end of it, with ceaseless support & understanding from both individuals, they decide to have the child though the child will not live for more than a day. at the end of show, the baby does pass away but it leaves you with a dawning that everything will alrite from then on. surely this is a good show becos it is something real, and something that happens. might seem like a tragedy but God has his means n' ways, and everything has a purpose. its just a matter of whether we're clear-minded enough to see it or not.
lumidee sings "uh-oh"
nothing compares to you....sleeping with ghosts
lumidee sings "uh-oh"
nothing compares to you....sleeping with ghosts
Saturday, August 30, 2003
had a long afternoon nap, and i still woke up with a buzz in my head so popped 2panadols, hoping that this would kill it. tomorrow, marlena, asra & moi will be trodding down to Jurong Green CC for serena's percussion performance. and im looking forward to it. Gracie had free tixs to Sonic Edge fest for today but i really need to stay at home and work on the DESCRIPTION field for the The Booksellers books database. *i can feel the panadols kicking in already* im watching The Simpsons and its still so damn freakin' sick, twisted, psychotic, and i love every minute of it. and this particular episode is 10times even more sicko. fast food, sick demented cartoons, nasty pornography, avarice-like capitalism, nukes, J-Lo, anti-depressants, jerry springer, mtv, Star Wars, napalm, free speech, oprah winfrey, terrorism, are all courtesy of The United States of America.
ludacris sings "move bitch, get outta way"
when i became Archibold Crane snacking on valium....sleeping with ghosts
ludacris sings "move bitch, get outta way"
when i became Archibold Crane snacking on valium....sleeping with ghosts
Friday, August 29, 2003
waaaahhhh.....nEo wad happen, which entry you are talking about becos i never touch anything leh....today will be a relatively busy day, sure hope that i could accomplish much. marlena sms-ed early in the morning saying that she has a craving for mooncake, must be in the mood for mooncake festival & the lantern-burning thingy. must learn to procrastinate less and work more. at least, i dont feel that restless anymore compared to yesterday.
sarah mclachlan sings "building a mystery"
i walked off the edge so that i could be evil....sleeping with ghosts
sarah mclachlan sings "building a mystery"
i walked off the edge so that i could be evil....sleeping with ghosts
ive been reading like madness, like a literature-starved kid and gone utterly raving mad, devouring books with an intensity that i had not possessed for a long while already. in 2 short weeks, ive finished jason goodwin's "on foot to the golden horn", chuck palahnick's "lullaby", and paul auster's "the book of illusions". i wonder what's next on the menu but it will be fiction/travel narrative again. ive just developed this system of reading 4 fiction/travel narrative books, and when that is done, i'll go on to read another 4 biz-related books, and when that is done, i'll start the system all over again. its like im craving for knowledge but not knowing where will all these restless-reading lead me too.
sarah mclachlan sings "sweet surrender"
i will be the one to fall....sleeping with ghosts
sarah mclachlan sings "sweet surrender"
i will be the one to fall....sleeping with ghosts
Sometimes it's the smallest decisions that can pretty much change your life forever..
Gdnite my friends.
i'll join you in dreamland soon.
song: starsailor's 'poor misguided fool'
marlena
Gdnite my friends.
i'll join you in dreamland soon.
song: starsailor's 'poor misguided fool'
marlena
Thursday, August 28, 2003
I've become a real believer in not defining every single thing..
Seems like everytime you think you've figured out what something is,
it just becomes something else..
song: starsailor's 'good souls'
marlena
Seems like everytime you think you've figured out what something is,
it just becomes something else..
song: starsailor's 'good souls'
marlena
Long ago, I drew a line into the sand
Jumped across and held your hand
Band of gold protect us from the bitter tide
That comes to wash away our words with time
Hello you,
Hello me
Hello Hello,
can't you see
Love is more than what it seems
So I wear your promise ring
Promises made under the rite of spring
Heavy under summer's sting
Say you know,
I'd run to where the spaceships land
A million miles between my mouth and hand
Hello you,
Hello me Hello Hello ,
can't you see
Love is more than what it seems
So I wear your promise ring
Love labors through the night
It bleeds and never fights
And like a seed it lives because it dies
So don't forget, just like cash
I walk the line
Like a soldier guarding what is mine
Hello you,
Hello me Hello Hello,
can't you see
Love is more than what it seems
So I wear your promise ring
*Tremolo's Promise Ring*. A sweet piano ballad...
marlena
Jumped across and held your hand
Band of gold protect us from the bitter tide
That comes to wash away our words with time
Hello you,
Hello me
Hello Hello,
can't you see
Love is more than what it seems
So I wear your promise ring
Promises made under the rite of spring
Heavy under summer's sting
Say you know,
I'd run to where the spaceships land
A million miles between my mouth and hand
Hello you,
Hello me Hello Hello ,
can't you see
Love is more than what it seems
So I wear your promise ring
Love labors through the night
It bleeds and never fights
And like a seed it lives because it dies
So don't forget, just like cash
I walk the line
Like a soldier guarding what is mine
Hello you,
Hello me Hello Hello,
can't you see
Love is more than what it seems
So I wear your promise ring
*Tremolo's Promise Ring*. A sweet piano ballad...
marlena
Wednesday, August 27, 2003
Hey! Got nothing to do right now so i've decided to put this up for no real purpose at all....Ok. Ok. Maybe for ONE purpose. I LOVE Scott Speedman! It's so sad that the show is over already. Gonna get my hands on the DVD once i have enough $$$.
Anyway, have fun looking at the behind-the-scenes pictures. And if you take the time and look extra hard, you might see someone from the TV series, Alias. *winks*
And i just found out that Keri Russell and Scott Speedman used to be an item for a year when Felicity was on. Damn! Some girls just have all the luck!!
Song: why don't you and i (santana and chad kroger)
marlena
Anyway, have fun looking at the behind-the-scenes pictures. And if you take the time and look extra hard, you might see someone from the TV series, Alias. *winks*
And i just found out that Keri Russell and Scott Speedman used to be an item for a year when Felicity was on. Damn! Some girls just have all the luck!!
Song: why don't you and i (santana and chad kroger)
marlena
Tuesday, August 26, 2003
im working on building a mystery, and if i could conceal myself into in, be enveloped by its self-effacing grace, etching its memory onto my skull, carving its language into my skin, and breathing & living as the mystery does, then maybe my life will be complete. i will write a book, a book detailing of every single good/evil deed that i had done. as cliche as it might sound, this will be my "Trainspotting" kinda of novel. i will tell the whole wide world that it is a pure work of fiction & imagination, and so nobody will be the wiser. but for those who are a part of my life, you'd know that the story is true. after starting to write when i was seventeen, i stopped for a sabbatical break albeit a extraneous long one but i guess i'll soon be ready to write again. and this time round, it'll be with sound & fury....
sarah mclachlan sings "sweet surrender"
she dont want to, she wont be there....sleeping with ghosts
sarah mclachlan sings "sweet surrender"
she dont want to, she wont be there....sleeping with ghosts
Hmmm....what should i write today?? havent been blogging for some time and im not sure what to blog about this time. Well, for one, i'm on leave today. gotta go to class later. OH!! Have a major crush on someone at school! hahahaha. Havent had any major crush on anyone for quite a long time now. Anyway, waiting for some setback to happen so that this big bubble of mine would burst and bring me back to reality. hehehe...but he is so adorable and charismatic...hmmm...this is what happened when you had a crush on someone. You will start to worship the guy. hahahaa.
Well, can't wait to see him later in class. Hope he's there...
Song: that's when i love you by aslyn (how to deal ost)
marlena
Well, can't wait to see him later in class. Hope he's there...
Song: that's when i love you by aslyn (how to deal ost)
marlena
Sunday, August 24, 2003
this is a Sunday morning. and i really have no exact idea why im up so early. managed to meet my friend who had just came back for a short trip from Brussels. he works there so its only usually twice or thrice a year that we get to meet up. it was good to see him again albeit the brevity of the meetup. im still expanding my Inventory Level for both The Booksellers physical store & the online e-retail store. as of now, i have 394 Fiction Titles, and if i were to include the multiple copies for certain titles, i'd have 497 fiction books sitting nicely into my overcrowded shelves now. i need to get new bookshelves ASAP or else my inventory will either be sleeping beside me in stacks or simply lying around any available empty space. Things are moving along for The Booksellers in terms of Inventory level, as for cold-hard-cash reserves, the situation should improve in 2-3 weeks time. mIe is still working on the e-retail site and i know we have only 6 weeks before it is supposed to be operational. the 3rd mini-biz setup is also kinda of moving along. i'll be coming out with the draft email regarding the application for the rental site. im meeting FM tomorrow after he finishes work so that he can go through the draft email first before i send it out. so thats it. in between my tuition assigments, my endeavours to increase the inventory level, and the workings of the 3rd setup, im pretty stretched.
evanescence screams "going under"
we tend to die young anyways these days....sleeping with ghosts
evanescence screams "going under"
we tend to die young anyways these days....sleeping with ghosts
Saturday, August 23, 2003
diana ser is a hottie and still is.... lucky bastard lye
WEEZER enjoying ISLAND IN THE SUN........
neo
WEEZER enjoying ISLAND IN THE SUN........
neo
this morning, right now, i feel as though im bursting with energy, this is farking brilliant, thank you God.
new order sings "regret"
band-aids on my wrists, sleeping with ghosts
new order sings "regret"
band-aids on my wrists, sleeping with ghosts
Friday, August 22, 2003
it is the changing of the old guards at my ex-workplace, and the replacements are not up to standard yet. as long as Porky Pig is head of HR, that dump will always be a dump, and soon it will all disintegrate. if you said i was evil & narrow-minded, well, i am, and i will destroy that dump with my own hands. for i have not yet learnt how to forgive my tresspassers and have yet seen kindness in them. what you've given me, i will give you back seven-fold. i'll pay back in kindness & love when i see it but until then, welcome to my evil schemes. at least i react to what i see as injustice, and not hide behind a facade of nonchalence & despair. there's always something one can do no matter how farking hopeless it all may seem.
cranberries sings "zombie"
a semblance of brain molko of placebo is what i need....sleeping with ghosts
cranberries sings "zombie"
a semblance of brain molko of placebo is what i need....sleeping with ghosts
the perks of living on a high floor, exactly 17 floors above ground, was that i saw a SHOOTING STAR last night while i was stoning on my bed. yesh i saw a shooting star and it burned up in mid-air, burning up into greenish-like flames. that was my first time seeing one, and it all happened so fast....
placebo sings "special needs" (farking brilliant mtv too)
you're standing on my neck, sleeping with ghosts
placebo sings "special needs" (farking brilliant mtv too)
you're standing on my neck, sleeping with ghosts
If Hirman can make people cry by leaving the store......then i can make people commit suicide....
woah......
i cant go for that...hall and oates told me....
neo
woah......
i cant go for that...hall and oates told me....
neo
Wednesday, August 20, 2003
Very hot day...i hate it when it gets too hot. it makes me feel like not stepping out of the house at all. but then, i have to go for class later. darn. today is hirman's last day. i'm really gonna miss that guy. he almost made me cry yesterday...luckily managed to hold back cuz the newbies are in the sortroom as well. don't want to embarrass myself....hehehe.
listening to Liz Phair's Why Can't I (from How to Deal OST)
Marlena
listening to Liz Phair's Why Can't I (from How to Deal OST)
Marlena
finally laid the groundwork for the 3rd setup yesterday together with nEo and FM. had checked out the location first and decided that it fits best to our needs or should i say what we could afford for a 6weeks contract. yesh, this 3rd setup will run for 6weeks, and if biz is good, we'll then continue running it. now, ive to contact the mgmt to see if the location is available for rent. once the rent is settled, most probably FM, nEo, and me will be flying to thailand to procure the merchandise. keeping our fingers crossed, this small biz setup will be up & running from mid-november to end-december.
break a leg, sleeping with ghosts
break a leg, sleeping with ghosts
Saturday, August 16, 2003
and now for a biz update regarding the activities of The Booksellers. for those that are quagmired in the dark, we, The Booksellers will be trying our darnest to set up a real bookstore hopefully in the 3rd quarter of next year2004. in the meantime, we are setting up the online version of it first. and for the e-retail bookstore, sales have been streaming in even though the site is not up yet. we estimate that the e-site will be operational roughly in 7 weeks time. *crosses fingers a lot a lot of times* as you can see, we are basically involved in 2 set-ups already, trying to prep up for the online store, and also planning for the physical store.
but as of 2 days before, we'll be getting our hands grimy with another set-up, and done in collaboration, with our favourite carebear, FM. he is the guy that has administrator status to this blog but then he doesn't blog. me thinks he's adverse to technology. for this new set-up, it'll be very small-scale one but the NUMERO UNO plan for this venture, is to channel the profits from it, to the coffers for The Booksellers. you can say that this set-up is more like a running-learning experience for all us, to know the technicalities of actually running a biz, and also to fatten The Booksellers's coffers. as of what set-up will it be, the information is not privy to all yet, but soon, i'll be spreading the word out once, the initial groundwork is done. lets just say it is a very small set-up, selling non-edible knick-knacks and sorts.
blessed union of souls sings "light in your eyes"
it wont rain all the time.......sleeping with ghosts
but as of 2 days before, we'll be getting our hands grimy with another set-up, and done in collaboration, with our favourite carebear, FM. he is the guy that has administrator status to this blog but then he doesn't blog. me thinks he's adverse to technology. for this new set-up, it'll be very small-scale one but the NUMERO UNO plan for this venture, is to channel the profits from it, to the coffers for The Booksellers. you can say that this set-up is more like a running-learning experience for all us, to know the technicalities of actually running a biz, and also to fatten The Booksellers's coffers. as of what set-up will it be, the information is not privy to all yet, but soon, i'll be spreading the word out once, the initial groundwork is done. lets just say it is a very small set-up, selling non-edible knick-knacks and sorts.
blessed union of souls sings "light in your eyes"
it wont rain all the time.......sleeping with ghosts
Friday, August 15, 2003
Nice day today...my 'hubby' got a new job! CONGRATS! I really hope that he's happy. if he's happy, i'm happy too! As for me, I passed my exams! hehehehe. My mum is unexpectedly happy for me too! I'm glad that she's happy although it's just an exam.
Oklah, I'm going to get back to reading. I'm reading 'Milk Glass Moon' by Adriana Trigiani. Surprisingly, it's interesting and I recommend you guys read it too. Hope I could finish it before class today.
C ya! And have a happy day to all of you.
Marlena.
Oklah, I'm going to get back to reading. I'm reading 'Milk Glass Moon' by Adriana Trigiani. Surprisingly, it's interesting and I recommend you guys read it too. Hope I could finish it before class today.
C ya! And have a happy day to all of you.
Marlena.
Wednesday, August 13, 2003
bloody hell...agro is back and we get no gifts...
i told him i wanna see at least choc tomolo morning at work......no reply....
he told chinatown he will buy a cheap choc on way to work tomolo...
christopher cross croaning 'sailing'
anderson
i told him i wanna see at least choc tomolo morning at work......no reply....
he told chinatown he will buy a cheap choc on way to work tomolo...
christopher cross croaning 'sailing'
anderson
muahhhahahaha...*evil laughter* i'm baccckkkkk! Had an uninvited worm in my computer since yesterday and with the help of miE, i've managed to get rid of it! DIE! WORM! DIE! Thanks a zillion, miE! I really could not live without my internet connection..thank god all's well now. (hugging my monitor...)hehehehe..thanks to my 'hubby', mr neo anderson for trying to help me with the stupid worm too...
Oh! FM is back! Im very very happy to hear that he's back from his holiday! Can't wait to see him again.
oh well, back to nursing my bruised knee now. I hurt it while playing netball last night. Apologies to sleeping with ghosts...i didn't mean to hurt you during the game. I can be a bit rough when it comes to netball but that's me. Hope you'll understand. I love netball! hehehe.. And asra, i'll make sure that the next game will be fixed on the day that you are free, k?? Don't sulk, k? Keep smiling....
David Bowie & Queen singing "Under Pressure"
Marlena
Oh! FM is back! Im very very happy to hear that he's back from his holiday! Can't wait to see him again.
oh well, back to nursing my bruised knee now. I hurt it while playing netball last night. Apologies to sleeping with ghosts...i didn't mean to hurt you during the game. I can be a bit rough when it comes to netball but that's me. Hope you'll understand. I love netball! hehehe.. And asra, i'll make sure that the next game will be fixed on the day that you are free, k?? Don't sulk, k? Keep smiling....
David Bowie & Queen singing "Under Pressure"
Marlena
just had a session of netball with the girls earlier. very pooped dead-tired now, and my migraine has re-surfaced again, haunting me like a damn broken record. will finish up some updating work for the The Booksellers database, and then it is off to la-la land. tomorrow will be another strawberry-jam-packed day again. wonder when will my physical self break down????
kashmir sings "rocket brothers"
you get what you give, so give freely....sleeping with ghosts
kashmir sings "rocket brothers"
you get what you give, so give freely....sleeping with ghosts
Tuesday, August 12, 2003
had supper (amazing yes i know) with chinatown and ex-historian last nite....
saw steph song just beside us and she look different from TV....
of cos we talked bout anything and everything..the hot topic rite now...the chinatown vs marlena and her alleged lover saga..
frankly, i am on no ones defence....neutral stand im taking..... i will take it as watching a show ..will put it in a better manner if i could think of it rite now..
Dun blame chinatown and dun blame anyone else also...
IF I HAD NO LOOT- TONY TONI TONE.......
anderson....
saw steph song just beside us and she look different from TV....
of cos we talked bout anything and everything..the hot topic rite now...the chinatown vs marlena and her alleged lover saga..
frankly, i am on no ones defence....neutral stand im taking..... i will take it as watching a show ..will put it in a better manner if i could think of it rite now..
Dun blame chinatown and dun blame anyone else also...
IF I HAD NO LOOT- TONY TONI TONE.......
anderson....
Monday, August 11, 2003
evanescence sings "going under"
now i will tell you what ive done for you fifty thousand tears ive cried screaming, deceiving, and bleeding for you and you still won't hear me...going under dont want your hand this time i'll save myself maybe i'll wake up the walls now tormented daily, defeated by you just when i thought i'd reached the bottom i...dive...again... im going under drowning you im falling forever ive got to break though im going under blurring and stirring the truth and the lies so i dont know what's real and what's lies always confusing the thoughts in my head so i can't trust myself anymore i...dive...again... im going under drowning you im falling forever ive got to break though...so go on and scream scream at me so far away i won't be broken again ive got to breathe...i can't keep going under i...dive...again... im going under drowning you im falling forever ive got to break though im going under going under im going under
i adore evanescence just like i adore placebo. its the words that is being sung that either ultimately makes it an epiphany of sorts or just simply jibberish jabberwocky. "going under" & "every me every you" surely has the makings of an epiphany of sorts. credo quia absurdum.
too fast to live, too young to die, sleeping with ghosts
now i will tell you what ive done for you fifty thousand tears ive cried screaming, deceiving, and bleeding for you and you still won't hear me...going under dont want your hand this time i'll save myself maybe i'll wake up the walls now tormented daily, defeated by you just when i thought i'd reached the bottom i...dive...again... im going under drowning you im falling forever ive got to break though im going under blurring and stirring the truth and the lies so i dont know what's real and what's lies always confusing the thoughts in my head so i can't trust myself anymore i...dive...again... im going under drowning you im falling forever ive got to break though...so go on and scream scream at me so far away i won't be broken again ive got to breathe...i can't keep going under i...dive...again... im going under drowning you im falling forever ive got to break though im going under going under im going under
i adore evanescence just like i adore placebo. its the words that is being sung that either ultimately makes it an epiphany of sorts or just simply jibberish jabberwocky. "going under" & "every me every you" surely has the makings of an epiphany of sorts. credo quia absurdum.
too fast to live, too young to die, sleeping with ghosts
Sunday, August 10, 2003
in the shape of things to come, too much reality come undone,
without you im nothing, so please carve your name onto my arm.
had a very tiring day yesterday, but ultimately productive becos had sorted what are the functions & workings for the The Booksellers online e-retail site. Mie will start working on it once ive passed to him the database that im still frantically working on. will be borrowing his scanner from him too, to scan in all the books' pixs since mine is already kapoot. also sold quite a substantial amount of books too, making it seems like yesterday was a "sell books" kinda of day. and for those that have NOT heard, we have changed the name, the company's name to The Booksellers. this is due to the fact when we realised the previous name might exposed us to legal issues if the business had ever ventured into the States. lets just say that i'd want to play it safe and prefer to take the long-term view too. the decision to change the name was made without Mr. anderson & zakk around though we had informed them via sms after that. hoped they dont mind the hastiness of the entire decision-making process, but marlena & i felt that we might as well get it over & done with. btw, marlena was the one that came out with the name The Booksellers, so kudos to her. most importantly, things are moving along. now to get the legal documents drafted up and apply for the biz licence. one step at a time and so instead of stress, we will lie there feeling charmed.
placebo sings "every you every me"
tomorrow will belong to us, sleeping with ghosts
without you im nothing, so please carve your name onto my arm.
had a very tiring day yesterday, but ultimately productive becos had sorted what are the functions & workings for the The Booksellers online e-retail site. Mie will start working on it once ive passed to him the database that im still frantically working on. will be borrowing his scanner from him too, to scan in all the books' pixs since mine is already kapoot. also sold quite a substantial amount of books too, making it seems like yesterday was a "sell books" kinda of day. and for those that have NOT heard, we have changed the name, the company's name to The Booksellers. this is due to the fact when we realised the previous name might exposed us to legal issues if the business had ever ventured into the States. lets just say that i'd want to play it safe and prefer to take the long-term view too. the decision to change the name was made without Mr. anderson & zakk around though we had informed them via sms after that. hoped they dont mind the hastiness of the entire decision-making process, but marlena & i felt that we might as well get it over & done with. btw, marlena was the one that came out with the name The Booksellers, so kudos to her. most importantly, things are moving along. now to get the legal documents drafted up and apply for the biz licence. one step at a time and so instead of stress, we will lie there feeling charmed.
placebo sings "every you every me"
tomorrow will belong to us, sleeping with ghosts
Saturday, August 09, 2003
Hey people....we might have to change our name cuz our proposed name "BooksInc." is too similar to a US store called "Books Inc. We don't want to be sued. So after hours of agony and working our brains out, we decided to call it simply... "The BookSellers". I guess the name says it all. Our working experience, expertise and stuff....
Placebo is singing its "English Summer Rain" right now. Niceeeee......
Marlena.
Placebo is singing its "English Summer Rain" right now. Niceeeee......
Marlena.
so this is Happie Nasional Day to Singapura. thank God for prince Sang Nila Utama, sir Stamford Raffles, and not forgetting sir William Farqhaur, and surely LKY, and most of all, our early forefathers & foremothers that made us. i ain't gung-ho patriotic but i'd die for my country when the need arises, so go figure.
placebo sings "every you every me"
so carve your name on my arm, sleeping with ghosts
placebo sings "every you every me"
so carve your name on my arm, sleeping with ghosts
Thursday, August 07, 2003
while lightly inspired by the "Apollo 13" movie and slightly inspired by my own predicament, i wrote this quite unorthodox, deviant vesper prayer (so all ye fellow christian bro & sis, please dont stone me)....
"throwing a live human into a welded/bolted tin can, and blasting it off into space, and hoping that it'll land in one piece on solid ground, is a damn risky business. but if we dont try such stunts, we would never ever learn to dream. to dream that sometimes it is all right to risk every single damn thing of our own precious little lives. to dream and REALISE that mankind must ultimately take risks in order to survive, and maybe even to be drawn accountable to the BIG ONE up there when we draw our last breath. So come tonight, may God watch our steps as we take our daily risks. Amen."
freddie mercury sings "radio goo-goo radio ga-ga"
please dont stone me lah, sleeping with ghosts
"throwing a live human into a welded/bolted tin can, and blasting it off into space, and hoping that it'll land in one piece on solid ground, is a damn risky business. but if we dont try such stunts, we would never ever learn to dream. to dream that sometimes it is all right to risk every single damn thing of our own precious little lives. to dream and REALISE that mankind must ultimately take risks in order to survive, and maybe even to be drawn accountable to the BIG ONE up there when we draw our last breath. So come tonight, may God watch our steps as we take our daily risks. Amen."
freddie mercury sings "radio goo-goo radio ga-ga"
please dont stone me lah, sleeping with ghosts
the daY starts with light,
for me it ends way after midnight.
i thinK of the many thoughts i had throughout the day,
i couldn't think of a single thought that makes me want to stay.
you & i in this globe of a universe,
things aren't meant to be in reverse.
is there even a reason to be happy,
when everything is downright crappy.
people cannot accpet the unthinkable,
i can't conform to these protocols, they are unreachable.
tell me, whY must there be a right & a wrong?
'fuck that notion.' it's forlonged.
all the time in the world,
that is till i turn blue.
zaKK
for me it ends way after midnight.
i thinK of the many thoughts i had throughout the day,
i couldn't think of a single thought that makes me want to stay.
you & i in this globe of a universe,
things aren't meant to be in reverse.
is there even a reason to be happy,
when everything is downright crappy.
people cannot accpet the unthinkable,
i can't conform to these protocols, they are unreachable.
tell me, whY must there be a right & a wrong?
'fuck that notion.' it's forlonged.
all the time in the world,
that is till i turn blue.
zaKK
my head too heavy to move bit
sneeze......sneeze......
used tonnes and tonnes of tissues.......
cant sleep well....
linkinpark shouts FAINT
anderson( taking off the shades..shag)
sneeze......sneeze......
used tonnes and tonnes of tissues.......
cant sleep well....
linkinpark shouts FAINT
anderson( taking off the shades..shag)
Wednesday, August 06, 2003
lately, by some quirky arrangement from the Almighty one, ive been presented with countless chances to do good. and im pretty pleased to say that i haven't really disappoint. and so this reminds me of "PAY IT FORWARD". for those who are ultimately clueless of the "pay it forward" concept, go knock on a wall or something. and when i was reminded of "pay it forward", it dawned on me that i should be doing more good. though albeitly, my acts of goodness & kindness will be done in an extremely arbitrary manner. why in an arbitrary manner since i want to do good???? well, its because im farking evil, thats why. at least, im trying to do good so dont be a nit-picker.
so next time, when you're approached by those irritating sticker-flag-day sellers, give them a dollar note, and not your loose change. yesh, a dollar note, even if its a ten. when you see someone giving out flyers, take one even if its of no farking interest to you. afterall, that person is trying to earn a living, and we should make it easier for him/her. and if someone asks you for directions, tell that person where to go even if you dont know bollocks about where the place is. and when someone serves you at a fastfood outlet or any retail place, remember to say "THANK YOU" with a genuine smile. and also remember to donate generously to all approved charities. make sure that its APPROVED, so that can qualify for tax rebate.
and last but not least, remember to say your prayers before you eat your food. i rest my case. an exception is that i'll no longer be nice & tolerant to "you-know-who", i had enough of six-months of nonsense.
the used sings "the taste of ink"
let us all pay it forward starting from now, sleeping with ghosts
so next time, when you're approached by those irritating sticker-flag-day sellers, give them a dollar note, and not your loose change. yesh, a dollar note, even if its a ten. when you see someone giving out flyers, take one even if its of no farking interest to you. afterall, that person is trying to earn a living, and we should make it easier for him/her. and if someone asks you for directions, tell that person where to go even if you dont know bollocks about where the place is. and when someone serves you at a fastfood outlet or any retail place, remember to say "THANK YOU" with a genuine smile. and also remember to donate generously to all approved charities. make sure that its APPROVED, so that can qualify for tax rebate.
and last but not least, remember to say your prayers before you eat your food. i rest my case. an exception is that i'll no longer be nice & tolerant to "you-know-who", i had enough of six-months of nonsense.
the used sings "the taste of ink"
let us all pay it forward starting from now, sleeping with ghosts
it has been a damn freakin' tired day, running two errands back-to-back, and without a single iota of rest is almost like crazy. but after my errands, i sat down at starbucks with marlena and enjoyed a well-deserved hot latte infused with a shot of vanilla. well, we both had the same drink actually. bought some chocolates to cheer up peizhen since she looked abit down today. i should be taking on another tuition assignment which pays me a healthy $400.00. but i dont know whether i'd be able to cope with so much, especially once i start my 4-months contract work at that place. and i heard that this latest tuition is located at Parkway, Marine Crescent. ipso facto, im sure that the journey to-and-fro will be one hell of a long ride, whether its by bus or train. i hope the 4-month contract thingy will allow me to work morning shifts all the way so that i can still arrange to go for the tuition job. my current kid is already 3-times a week, and now this latest one is 2-times a week. so this works out to the fact that out of 7 evenings, 5 of it will be burned. and since im working in the day also, i seriously foresee a No-Lifer till the end of the year.
i have also been working on getting all the books that i have currently in-stock into a Word database. the basic information is already in, and now, im just left with the farking MAMMOTH task of typing in the every single book's synopsis into the database. This is really going to be hellish, and i pray that God will give me the strength & patience & haste. why do i say its hellish???? imagine, you've to key in like 250-plus titles of synopsis, and you'd jolly know what i mean. marlena offered to help but i think she deserves a rest after fighting her way out of her many assignments. Mr. Neo Anderson has fallen ill and besides, all the books are with me, so only me can easily access it, and key in the synopsis. did i mention that the stocks increases almost every single day too, which makes this keying-in task even more challenging.
for some damn SICKO reason, im actually thrilled by so much work to do, so much challenges for me to struggle & whine through. this is going to be so much fun fun fun.
evanescence sings "bring to life"
there, but for the grace of God, go i, sleeping with ghosts
i have also been working on getting all the books that i have currently in-stock into a Word database. the basic information is already in, and now, im just left with the farking MAMMOTH task of typing in the every single book's synopsis into the database. This is really going to be hellish, and i pray that God will give me the strength & patience & haste. why do i say its hellish???? imagine, you've to key in like 250-plus titles of synopsis, and you'd jolly know what i mean. marlena offered to help but i think she deserves a rest after fighting her way out of her many assignments. Mr. Neo Anderson has fallen ill and besides, all the books are with me, so only me can easily access it, and key in the synopsis. did i mention that the stocks increases almost every single day too, which makes this keying-in task even more challenging.
for some damn SICKO reason, im actually thrilled by so much work to do, so much challenges for me to struggle & whine through. this is going to be so much fun fun fun.
evanescence sings "bring to life"
there, but for the grace of God, go i, sleeping with ghosts
the sky lit up (extended version)
and still the sky lit up. walking endlessly into the night. i tend to drift away. on these irrelevant thoughts of mine. i might learn how not to feel but if words could crack into two, well, my would, i guess. its not easy to be naive depsite what people will say. they are the hoi polloi. and we are we. standing amidst the crowd. we might seek for one & each. but we might still want to be alone. the sky will always light up. and i will say that its lit-up. with an angel standing by. seeing me fast. knowing that i will get through. if there was a better part of me. the angel would know what to do with it. i chose this baptism of fire. and so will i walk through it. make it or break it. its how i veiw it. fall upon my knees. with you crashing me by. its time i say my prayers.
prose
had a sudden urge to wax lyrical so i did. despite these semi-crappy underlings that im feeling now, i know that God will get me through cos He's always able.
five for fighting sings "superman"
alone i break, sleeping with ghosts
and still the sky lit up. walking endlessly into the night. i tend to drift away. on these irrelevant thoughts of mine. i might learn how not to feel but if words could crack into two, well, my would, i guess. its not easy to be naive depsite what people will say. they are the hoi polloi. and we are we. standing amidst the crowd. we might seek for one & each. but we might still want to be alone. the sky will always light up. and i will say that its lit-up. with an angel standing by. seeing me fast. knowing that i will get through. if there was a better part of me. the angel would know what to do with it. i chose this baptism of fire. and so will i walk through it. make it or break it. its how i veiw it. fall upon my knees. with you crashing me by. its time i say my prayers.
prose
had a sudden urge to wax lyrical so i did. despite these semi-crappy underlings that im feeling now, i know that God will get me through cos He's always able.
five for fighting sings "superman"
alone i break, sleeping with ghosts
Tuesday, August 05, 2003
hmmm...someone i know is a bit tipsy and is at my hm rite now. luckily, he didnt puke or i'll have to clean up the mess. anyway, he is still sober enough to acknowledge my stepdad when i brought him hm. (my family knows him...thank god.) didn't told my parents that he's staying over...hahahaha. he was having drinks with some buddies whom i know and he seemed to get carried away. he seems to forget that he couldn't hold his liquor that well. (can't beat me! erm......i'll take that back. hehehehe.) so, anyways, he called me and asked whether he could crash at my place. he didnt feel like going back hm. i was surprised but i agreed without asking for my parents' permission..hehehehe. nah...they won't say anything anyway. but i have this inkling feeling that mum will nag tomorrow...(Mothers....sigh. what else can i say?)hahaha.
Made him sit down and drink some plain water while i watched the last bit of smallville. then made him take a cold shower. dunno whether that helps but i forced him anyway. talk to him for a bit and now im blogging while he is slowly nodding off in the makeshift bed that i had made for him. hmmmm.....now me feel sleepy and tired as well. dunno whether i should leave my assignment for tomorrow morning or do it later. (Assignments due this wednesday......yikes!)
too much distractions this week and now im beginning to get real worried if i'll ever hand them in on time......H.E.L.P M.E!
Marlena
Made him sit down and drink some plain water while i watched the last bit of smallville. then made him take a cold shower. dunno whether that helps but i forced him anyway. talk to him for a bit and now im blogging while he is slowly nodding off in the makeshift bed that i had made for him. hmmmm.....now me feel sleepy and tired as well. dunno whether i should leave my assignment for tomorrow morning or do it later. (Assignments due this wednesday......yikes!)
too much distractions this week and now im beginning to get real worried if i'll ever hand them in on time......H.E.L.P M.E!
Marlena
Monday, August 04, 2003
am quite exhausted today and my sole is aching rite now. got the sketches that rachel z is doing for booksinc's logo. gonna ask miE to scan it in or something.. anyway, something very very embarrassing and once in the lifetime event happened to me on my way home. the bus that i took was full so i had to stand throughout the ride. then while i happily listening to the song playing by perfect10 on my radio hp, the bus made an abrupt stop. this sudden change of course threw me off guard. although i was holding on to one of the seat handles, it just wasn't good enough. i couldnt get a proper footing and fell onto a guy who was snoozing away when this happened! yes! i literally fell onto his lap. hahahahaha...apologised immediately and my face went beet red! wah lau! so embarrassing. immediately, my mind started to wonder how many passengers actually saw that incident! aiyoyo..cannot believe that this is happening to me man......wah lau! lol!
anyway, read an interesting book just now. it's called "the girl's guide to surviving a breakup". not that i need to read this kind of book...actually believe it or not, i wanted to give it to letty but decided to read it for fun first. it's quite hilarious and intelligent too! hehehe...you guys must be wondering what's up with marlena man. hahahaha. i never read a self-help book before so i decided to give it a try and was surprised that it's quite entertaining.
oklah. gonna have my dinner now.
P.S. a paragraph from the book - Do Not Call Him. whether or not you should contact him in general is a larger issue that i address later, but it's never a good idea to call him in the middle of the night. (For these purposes, the middle of the night is any time from 11p.m. to 8a.m.). *sounds familiar, sleeping with ghosts??* there's a brilliant cartoon of a woman with her hair standing on end, surrounded by Kleenex, with a phone in her hand getting an electric shock. the clock on the wall behind her shows it's 3a.m. the caption reads something like: "The Phone Shocker: Perfect for Stopping You From Making Those Embarrassing 3a.m. Phone Calls That You Will Regret!" i haven't been able to find this gadget in real life, but if you are anything like me or my friend Lucy, it could come in real handy..
Enjoy!
Song: Born to try (Delta Goodrem) - btw, this singer is excellent, more talented than britney, sings better, writes her own songs, beautiful, 18yrs old, an australian and is suffering from breast cancer. but dun worry guys, the good news is its not life-threatening...hehe.
Marlena
anyway, read an interesting book just now. it's called "the girl's guide to surviving a breakup". not that i need to read this kind of book...actually believe it or not, i wanted to give it to letty but decided to read it for fun first. it's quite hilarious and intelligent too! hehehe...you guys must be wondering what's up with marlena man. hahahaha. i never read a self-help book before so i decided to give it a try and was surprised that it's quite entertaining.
oklah. gonna have my dinner now.
P.S. a paragraph from the book - Do Not Call Him. whether or not you should contact him in general is a larger issue that i address later, but it's never a good idea to call him in the middle of the night. (For these purposes, the middle of the night is any time from 11p.m. to 8a.m.). *sounds familiar, sleeping with ghosts??* there's a brilliant cartoon of a woman with her hair standing on end, surrounded by Kleenex, with a phone in her hand getting an electric shock. the clock on the wall behind her shows it's 3a.m. the caption reads something like: "The Phone Shocker: Perfect for Stopping You From Making Those Embarrassing 3a.m. Phone Calls That You Will Regret!" i haven't been able to find this gadget in real life, but if you are anything like me or my friend Lucy, it could come in real handy..
Enjoy!
Song: Born to try (Delta Goodrem) - btw, this singer is excellent, more talented than britney, sings better, writes her own songs, beautiful, 18yrs old, an australian and is suffering from breast cancer. but dun worry guys, the good news is its not life-threatening...hehe.
Marlena
working on the database version of the booklist is totally screwing up eyes. i hope h8mie would have better luck once im done and pass the database to him. he still has to input all information into a proper online e-site. good luck, my friend, you need lotsa of it when you have to input close to 200plus titles.
i have to run 2 errands today and not to mention tuition in the evening. looks like its going to be one hell of another tired day. but its all well-worth it in the end. less talk, more work, there's so much more stuff to do. the zine, the numbers for BooksInc., the planning for the online e-site, the secret promotional BooksInc. material....etc.
linkin park sings "faint"
i wont be ignored, sleeping with ghosts
i have to run 2 errands today and not to mention tuition in the evening. looks like its going to be one hell of another tired day. but its all well-worth it in the end. less talk, more work, there's so much more stuff to do. the zine, the numbers for BooksInc., the planning for the online e-site, the secret promotional BooksInc. material....etc.
linkin park sings "faint"
i wont be ignored, sleeping with ghosts
Sunday, August 03, 2003
zakK herE. todaY is SunDay & iT's mY oFF daY. tALKed to sleepIng wIth gHosts earlier & a cErtain soMeone 'eveRyone knowS wHo'. iS maKing liFe a liVing hell foR hiM & otheRs aound heR. i'Ve tried to talK to HeR & BE whaT a frieNd shoulD be. But sHe alwaYs jusT makeS it Harder & harDer.
Maybe Being a frienD jusT makeS it Even worsE. i GiVe Up!
teMpReMenTaL BITCH!
wOrDs aRe SaiD iN cOnfIdEncE,
buT taLk is ineVidEnt.
I'vE lOst TrUst,
i BeLeivE KeEpinG tHe SileNce iS aN EaSIeR tAsK...
AlL tHe TiMe iN tHe WoRlD,
Tt Is TiLL i TurN bLuE.
zaKK
Maybe Being a frienD jusT makeS it Even worsE. i GiVe Up!
teMpReMenTaL BITCH!
wOrDs aRe SaiD iN cOnfIdEncE,
buT taLk is ineVidEnt.
I'vE lOst TrUst,
i BeLeivE KeEpinG tHe SileNce iS aN EaSIeR tAsK...
AlL tHe TiMe iN tHe WoRlD,
Tt Is TiLL i TurN bLuE.
zaKK
God, i plead "serenity" from you. seriously, pass me that little bit of serenity. i dont like it when others climb onto my head and start pissing on it. i tend to develop a very nasty reaction to it. this ain't a threat, im damn farking serious.
rob zombie raises some more hell by singing "reload"
you're crashing me by, sleeping with ghosts
rob zombie raises some more hell by singing "reload"
you're crashing me by, sleeping with ghosts
Saturday, August 02, 2003
* EMERGENCY BROADCAST * EMERGENCY BROADCAST *
we had been screwed by the people of Squawkbox aka the people that handles the technicalities of our Comments thingy. it'll be down temporarily as we had recieved a message saying that we need to PAY for the comments services if we still want to keep on using it. im not going to really take an AGRO stance on this issue because i realise that Squawkbox is a biz entity that needs to make a profit too. but they could have done it in a more polite manner.
we will be searching for a new Comments provider but this time round, we will be opting for payment. first to avoid such incidents again. second, a paid comments account will yield us more control & creative power. third, since we are moving along the direction of the online store, we might as well pay up. cos there's no such thing as a free lunch, or in most occassions. heck, we might even upgrade to Blogger Pro which means we must pay too. any willing generous philanthropists out there.......
fay ray sings "all i want, all i need"
there, but for the grace of God, go i....sleeping with ghosts
we had been screwed by the people of Squawkbox aka the people that handles the technicalities of our Comments thingy. it'll be down temporarily as we had recieved a message saying that we need to PAY for the comments services if we still want to keep on using it. im not going to really take an AGRO stance on this issue because i realise that Squawkbox is a biz entity that needs to make a profit too. but they could have done it in a more polite manner.
we will be searching for a new Comments provider but this time round, we will be opting for payment. first to avoid such incidents again. second, a paid comments account will yield us more control & creative power. third, since we are moving along the direction of the online store, we might as well pay up. cos there's no such thing as a free lunch, or in most occassions. heck, we might even upgrade to Blogger Pro which means we must pay too. any willing generous philanthropists out there.......
fay ray sings "all i want, all i need"
there, but for the grace of God, go i....sleeping with ghosts
Hahahahahahaha...
Guys, check out my all-time favourite comic strip. Sit back and enjoy!
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Song: Going Under (Evanescence)
Marlena
Guys, check out my all-time favourite comic strip. Sit back and enjoy!
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Song: Going Under (Evanescence)
Marlena
Aiyah......im supposed to wake up at 11am today to start working on my assignments as they are due in 5 days time but instead, i woke up at 2plus in the afternoon!!
Anyway, sleeping with ghosts, i don't have the solution to your "letty" problem but if you need anyone to talk to, just give me a buzz. (like what you just did at around 3 in the morning today....hehehe.) I might not help much or give you good advice but hey, i don't mind listening to your problems.
Oh ya, i couldn't catch my fav filipino tv drama anymore! Aaaarrrgh!! The malaysian side decided to move it over from tv1 to tv2! Sigh....i don't have tv2. im sure that aisyah, jun, elfie's mum, my brother's fiancee's mother and many other ppl out there are bitching about it. hehehe.
Alright, take care ppl. Enjoy and have fun during the weekends while i'll be slogging away with my assignments.
Song: Good Enough (Sarah McLachlan)
Marlena
Anyway, sleeping with ghosts, i don't have the solution to your "letty" problem but if you need anyone to talk to, just give me a buzz. (like what you just did at around 3 in the morning today....hehehe.) I might not help much or give you good advice but hey, i don't mind listening to your problems.
Oh ya, i couldn't catch my fav filipino tv drama anymore! Aaaarrrgh!! The malaysian side decided to move it over from tv1 to tv2! Sigh....i don't have tv2. im sure that aisyah, jun, elfie's mum, my brother's fiancee's mother and many other ppl out there are bitching about it. hehehe.
Alright, take care ppl. Enjoy and have fun during the weekends while i'll be slogging away with my assignments.
Song: Good Enough (Sarah McLachlan)
Marlena
Friday, August 01, 2003
its confirmed & official that h8mie will be in-charge of designing & taking of care of the technicalities of setting up the online store. with the ball now in our court, its time to sit down and decide on its long-term direction. looks like we'd have to meet regularly, just like when we did during the "workings" of the biz plan. h8mie had said that it'd roughly take one to two months before it comes into operation. in the meantime, ive to work on stocking & devising the inventory system. and also not to mention that we have to work out a payment package with h8mie for his technical services. rachel z is also working on the 2-D designs related to BooksInc. as we speak right now, she's working on sample designs for the BooksInc. icon.
looks like its going to be one hell of a ride for us. next week or the week after, we'll be going down to RCB to register for the biz license, which will lead us to the e-biz license. we decided to opt out applying via online because we have quite a few questions that requires some serious answers. besides, the outing to RCB will do us good.
stacie orrico sings "stuck" and she has such a cute mole
you're crashing me by, sleeping with ghosts
looks like its going to be one hell of a ride for us. next week or the week after, we'll be going down to RCB to register for the biz license, which will lead us to the e-biz license. we decided to opt out applying via online because we have quite a few questions that requires some serious answers. besides, the outing to RCB will do us good.
stacie orrico sings "stuck" and she has such a cute mole
you're crashing me by, sleeping with ghosts
Audioslave's "Like A Stone"
on a cobweb afternoon in a room full of emptiness by a freeway i confess i was lost in the pages of a book full of death reading how we'll die alone and if we're good we'll lay to rest anywhere we want to go in your house i long to be room by room patiently i'll wait for you there like a stone i'll wait for you there alone on my deathbed i will pray to the gods and the angels like a pagan to anyone who will take me to heaven to a place i recall i was there so long ago the sky was bruised the wine was bled and there you led me on in your house i long to be room by room patiently i'll wait for you there like a stone i'll wait for you there alone and on i read until the day was done and i sat in regret of all the things i've done for all that i've blessed and all that i've wronged in dreams until my death i will wander on.
now i know why i like this song that much. because to a certain extent it is my epiphany.
you're crashing me by, sleeping with ghosts
on a cobweb afternoon in a room full of emptiness by a freeway i confess i was lost in the pages of a book full of death reading how we'll die alone and if we're good we'll lay to rest anywhere we want to go in your house i long to be room by room patiently i'll wait for you there like a stone i'll wait for you there alone on my deathbed i will pray to the gods and the angels like a pagan to anyone who will take me to heaven to a place i recall i was there so long ago the sky was bruised the wine was bled and there you led me on in your house i long to be room by room patiently i'll wait for you there like a stone i'll wait for you there alone and on i read until the day was done and i sat in regret of all the things i've done for all that i've blessed and all that i've wronged in dreams until my death i will wander on.
now i know why i like this song that much. because to a certain extent it is my epiphany.
you're crashing me by, sleeping with ghosts
